Sunday, November 30, 2008

First, i want to wish Happy Birthday to myself, Chermaine, and Ben. it is such a coincidence that our birthdays fall on the very same week. i can just pity my friends who fork out money to buy presents for us.

i am one year older, don't really feel any difference. after having that life changing experience. i made a few weird new life resolutions. first one is not to comment about anything. whether the person is doing well or not. i just feel that i should not comment on them. (unless they are making real big mistake.) it is just that i do not want to hurt anyone. second is not to compromise. being a "super nice guy" is not easy. sometimes i just want my way to be done. i have compromise too much in the past that some of them are already climbing on top of my head. this teach me a lesson not to compromise easily. last but not least, don't be straightforward even if got something to correct the person. I learn something. a person will never really learn unless they manage to convince themselves. might as well leave the job to them.

i have learn and gain alot this year. i was thinking whether should i strive to be a leader or just be glad being a small member forever. i got my answer, no matter where i am, just be glad to serve.

i have been serving real hard these few days. took a day off on my birthday. start off my engine next day in the morning. i did videoing for my teacher's wedding. i feel so accomplished after doing it. straight after that, took a twenty minute lunch break, and i went to do videoing for the retreat. I continue the flow and did the last night session for the whole retreat. after that i feel so filled by the holy spirit.

at night i went to make chermaine's birthday gift. A cardboard guitar. I could have done a better job if the time wasn't so limited. i stayed up the whole night making it. i manage to have a short nap and i manage to get less than thirty minutes of sleep. i felt like a zombie when i went for first service. equipped with my black shirt, prepare to do my duty for third service. i was really very tired. but i manage my physical tiredness and complete the duty. After that went down to do sound for the class. finally my serving for five duties for two whole days are over.

i have to admit that i am really physically tired, but in spiritual i felt so accomplished and so spirit-filled like never before. I guess when there is gain there also bound to e lost. even now as i am typing, my eyes are becoming like mashimaro's eyes. i guess i will have to stop. by the way, i am too tired to post the learning day by day. so i leave you readers a great chapter. read up Isaiah 58. Amen! :)