Thursday, August 16, 2007

grr... today so angry. want to crush a person with my hands. somebody stole my bio book. thinking of it makes me really angry. the bio book is very expensive, got to dig out my allowance to buy it. i search the whole class for the book but to no avail. i think the person who took my book brought it home. it is just within a few days, i was just browsing it on monday then it went missing on thursday, makes no sense wat. i really want to break the hands of the person who stole it. THERE IS NO INTEGRITY WITH PPL NOWADAYS. another thing i m unhappy is that with some ppl. why humans r like tat, i m the one who lost the book not you. you will nvr noe how i feel. you r not the one who search every table and every corner of the class to find it. all you noe is to scold me for losing it, do u noe i m already very unhappy bcoz someone stole it from me and there you are stepping on my scar by reprimanding. it is not whether the money to buy a new book, izzit worth it for me to buy a new one, when you r using it to teach me a lesson for losing it. what is the point. i gotta find my old book, no matter to search every class every table for it. i will not give up. gotta break the person arms if i noe who steal it. gotta strike on nxt wk to find my book on the alternate mon n thurs. spoil my spiritual life siah, when i think about the scolding i really lose faith in god. wat can i do more to gain more faith in you. it is as though i m losing it everyday. juz now i think, what r u really doing? can u help me? i wait on you for about a year? r u really listening to me? even now i still feel uncomfortable, i really hope god can help me find the book by leading me to the person who took it. if god really do that, i will have more faith and i promise not to hold grudges on that person, i will forgive.

today i no need to go for pc leader. quite happy. no need to see all those spoilt juniors. today topic is about sexual education. oh man, why do MOE want to do such a topic. today a video is shown in the class. when the video is being played, the guys in the class started criticising the woman who was acting. saying that she is not pretty etc. they judge the person in every way. after the video they started using vulgar language to say about the term Sex. they started giving vulgar names for the diseases. they even start laughing when those ppl talk about the disease they r having and discourage us from it. the immature thinking of them really makes me irritating. i felt like cutting my ears off upon hearing those things they are saying. urghh... can't they have at least some discernment when they are speaking. one more thing, today mr tan said about the aides mosquitoes that have been going around. when he said the word i thought he was calling me, the whole class started laughing. i felt funny though. the only thing that please me is my geog common test results. i get 14/15 A1. shiok man. to be frank i studied on the day of the test. maybe i dun deserve this grade like others who studied the day before. maybe is the common knowledge that i got. today is just not my day, so suai. i muz think of ways to make myself calm down or else i will find something to vent my anger on. i really hope that i can find my book... pls return it to me no matter who is it.