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15 days to O levels...(this is the correct one)

it have been a very interesting week for me. i mean last week though. last week zone service was great. leaders stepping down and new leaders rising up. there are good times with Cameron and Delia though. But everyone need to move on. i am very happy for them though. now with a new leader, it is time for zone 2 to rise up to a higher level though. i am expecting that.

it is actually quite interesting when i look back in my past memories. one day i sat down and think after i talk to one of my sheep. the things i talk to her is fully about the bible. it was not a bible study though. it is just a normal bible talk. we end off our conversation (because she was in a rush) with a question that she asked. " why do you know so much about the Word?" i answer her very simply Read the Word and Follow God. after that question i went back to think about it. i asked myself this question in practical terms. since when in my spiritual life did i acquire such knowledge. i finally learn that my biblical knowledge really comes from the old gen 2.3 when we were closely guided. i believe this not only applies to me.

of course i don't mean i learn nothing in gen 2.2. thanks to the training in old 2.3, i became very independent in learning the Word. i don't rely on anyone, still asking my dozens questions though. i learn christian values in gen 2.2. i learn about accountability, going home early (trying to keep my curfew on weekends too), being a good testimony (still being chase around by DM for doing street-e), importance of outreach, leadership and many many more. gen 2.2 is a place that i learn about life journey, old gen 2.3 is a place more of bible training. If next time i have a chance to lead a cell group, i would really want my cell group to be equip with both factors.

so scary, exams are coming. (don't sound convincing though) everyday study and study and still studying. weekends still studying. grr.... when is exams going to be over. i may be lack of preparation but i still want the exams to finish as soon as possible. why O levels is not now. i would much prefer if it is earlier. then i can enjoy longer holidays. but the days are number... but when i check my exam timetable, i find it real dumb. 1 month to take 6 subjects worth of papers. actually 2 weeks will be more than enough. but it will give us buffering time to study the other subjects during the intervals. (last minute studies just won't workout) just gotta look at the bright side sometimes. This is a Singaporean Life!!!

someone talk to me recently. it was a really shocking conversation. whatever he told me just struck me. until now i still can't get the conversation out of my mind. it was so personal that it is almost impossible for anyone to know about it. how this person know what is troubling me for the past few months. i didn't tell anyone, the only person so far i told is only Jesus. this is only one instances, there are also seasons in my life that people do that to me. scary but i get valuable advices out from it. it is good thing, that my prayers are actually answered through these conversations. We serve a good God who answer prayers. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Nehemiah 4:9

9 Nevertheless we made our prayer to our God, and because of them we set a watch against them day and night.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 9/30/2008 06:13:00 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

32 more days to O's.

counting down day by day. praying for blessings for my exams. studying very hard everyday. school have been great today. my friend is back in health again. Hee Hee. now i am the sick cat. praying for healing too. i have been feeling very very peaceful. i seems not really excited about everything.

some of my friends find me very bored. whatever sms they send me, trying to start a conversation. i will usually give them a one word response which just shuts down the whole conversation. except official stuff though. the find me so dead. i don't know why i am like that nowadays. (actually it started from today though, still receiving feed backs)

everything i do is ok. whatever i reply is ok. i find myself boring too. i going to be a boring person till i finish my exams. then i can be the funny person again. but i am still overflowing with my sense of humour. i just couldn't help it. once in a while crack some lame jokes to cheer my sad friends up.

there are also times that i feel down too. just recently, one day i just cut off my phone. wanted some peaceful moments to think about God and life. i just gotta do it sometimes. not being push by phone calls and smses all the time. maybe i will do it more often from now on. at times i just need to get off from all these communications to make myself really relax not being force and push by people.

the day that i don't look forward to is coming. there is going to be major changes in the zone and the cell. these few days i have been thinking. maybe if we multiply it will really benefit us. i actually encourage the idea which in the past, it is something that i will never do. it is time now. zone 2 is going up to another level. Praise God for that.

in my life, there are ups and downs. in gen 2.2 there are not really any down moments. last week and these few days, when i think about the past. i was not even interested in thinking of it anymore, moreover talk about it. whatever is past is past. i can no longer find that past back again. might as well think far and look into the bright future ahead. KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!

after thinking about spiritual walk and life. i really need to look for a person like a friend who will understand me. i don't like being solo. tried talking to a few people, our visions, goals and mindset are just so different. very hard to find similar people. i just have to live with people who cannot really click with me. Amen!

Learning Day by Day: Romans 15:7

7 Therefore receive one another, just as Christ also received us,^[a] to the glory of God.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 9/22/2008 05:37:00 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2008

deep to the down to the deep deep down. that was my camp group cheer. it was a very interesting time for me. the messages for the services was great. i used to have the wrong mindset that i go for camps to experience God and attend the services. the games are not important at all. Zone 2 camp makes me excited because it was bible games. my favourite. no need to chiong so hard to win.

how is life? the usual question that i ask everyone when i give them a call. i keep asking others but no one ask me yet. i heard different answers from different people. after all those conversations. i hear life problems, problems that they face in their everyday life. there are times that i wonder, why don't you seek God instead. that should be the place that we talk to God like a friend and pray to him for an answer. even if you do not get an answer, at least you are accountable to God.

i came across weird blogs. they write weird entries that no one understands. i thought a blog is to express yourself and sum up your everyday life. writing weird stuff just shows that you are hiding alot of things to yourself. having such privacy in a blog just shows that you need someone to be there for you. i am getting too sidetrack.

back to life again. my best friend is sick, i got no one sitting beside me now. hope she will get well soon and talk to me again. although the things we talk are very lame. but we still enjoy each other lameness. i am very open when i talk to her though. there is no such thing as secrets between the both of us. but when we get into spiritual topics, both of us will find a gap between us because she is an unbeliever. so sad. :(

oh wells, i have been praying for her for two years from now. i really hope that she come back to the Lord again then there will no longer be a gap in our topics. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Psalm 32:11

11 Be glad in the LORD and rejoice, you righteous;
And shout for joy, all you upright in heart!

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 9/18/2008 04:52:00 PM

Monday, September 15, 2008

Monday. life is usual in school as it is. a few adjustment to the timetable. no more mother-tongue sleeping periods for me. that is the only on monday i can regain my attention and move on to other periods without sleeping again. so sad. i guess got to take caffeine again. (that is killing me) now everything in school is intensive after intensive programs. guess it is to help us.

last week friday makes me sit down and seriously think about alot of things. i spend one hour on sunday to sum up everything that i have listen and learn from the people. i have a few conclusions about some things. i finally know where i am heading towards after my O's. by praying and thinking of that make my hair drop quite alot by scratching. it is great to know where to start and move when i know where is my direction.

i am so excited, I WANT TO SHARE IT TO SOMEONE!!! it is time for me to move on to look for new friends that i can share my dreams, visions and goals. i am now on a search to find my shadrech, mishech and abed nego. please register yourself with me. lol.

the parcel of learning is fun. i learn alot of things in it. i want to go to one place that i can excel. not a spiritual place. it is a place out of Singapore. i maybe able to go there. that will take quite a long time.

Learning Day by Day: Psalm 144:15

15 Happy are the people who are in such a state;
Happy are the people whose God is the LORD!

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 9/15/2008 07:43:00 PM

Friday, September 12, 2008

Back to blogging again. some of my friends says that my blog is lagging. so i decided to update it. so many things happen in the past few weeks. just two weeks, so many things change for the better and for the worse. now there is so much things that i don't know where to start from. maybe i want to just keep things simple down here.

yupp. first the showcase, it was a great success. so many souls were saved by Jesus just in one single day. it makes me rejoices to see people coming to God day by day. it is really a fantastic feeling. i see tears from the people's eyes, genuinely touch by God. remind me of the past. but we got to keep moving forward.

In our lives, there are times that we want to move forward but we are being pull down by people and things around us. it is like my class. when someone wanted to excel they pull them down. i thought we are friends. that is the best idea. how many times in your lives, true friends are the ones who support you in your trials. true enough. but how many times and still counting, sometimes they are the ones who pull you down.

that was random, back to it. cell growth have been wonderful. it is really very encouraging to see it. i am reaching 16 real soon. have been asking myself questions and asking God too. where do i see myself in the cell group next year. i want to change, i want to excel, i want to KEEP MOVING FORWARD. that is always what i wanted. it is easier to be said than to be done though.

so many things happen. my Os are knocking on my doorstep. it is time for me to be prepared to answer that door. this will be the ending phase for part of my life. it is time for me to take a rest before starting another phase. i am excited for it though. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: John 7:37

37 On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 9/12/2008 06:28:00 PM