Why do we love?

tired arh. maybe this blog will be my weekly blog. nwadays cannot blog like everyday, busy arh. yesterday spend money on ear phones. things nwadays very ex. this week is nt a very good week for me. there are arguments this week with frenz n family. sad though very easy get angry, very hard to control my feelings. there is zone meeting today, after that went to simpang bedok to have lunch. went to TM shopping with cell members. we went to the arcade to play sum non-violent games. it is sumtimes very good to spend a day with them. i m a very free person but they are very busy. get together times is sumtimes very hard.

jan is going to NTU. she will be studying in Boon Lay. so far can. still want me to visit her. haiz. i dun think i will go visit her lah. quite far leh. she is going in aug. that's mean the girls in our cell will have lesser chances in getting together. long time no bible study. the latest one is wif johnny about 'Evangelism Explosion'. the times i had bible study with jan, i can count with two hands. haiz.

it is time for me t be independent summore. dun bother my shepherd liao. to be frank, if i have problems in life i will share to XY. she is a good listener but cannot advise me much. if i got problems i will ask johnny to advise me in what i shld do. he is a good listener n will use my problems n advise me spiritually. he is going for NS liao. no one tok to me liao. sad arghhh...

my sch hit the news on fri. toking about a few students playing in the canal. super embarassing for our sch. the principal was so angry that she keep us bac to tok about it. even though we have exams later. those kids were only sec 1 & 2. they kena beaten up by seniors. the seniors are not happy bcoz they make them lose face when they get into these kind of problems when only lower sec. they are very stupid as they commit the same thing the principal share with us. sum more is the afternoon, the same day, morning that she shared wif us water dangers.

yesterday gt mid-year, english, i write the compo until so emo like it really happen. i write the qns about 'home'. after the exam, i share wif my frenz what qns i write, but they say mine is very hard sure get very low marks. very discouraging leh. but i believe i can get good grades as i know this time i write very different from my usual style.there will be more exams next weeks. more stress getting ahead. STRESS ARGHH!!!

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/28/2007 11:47:00 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

wow almost the whole week nvr blog. this few days quite busy n tired. this week is the chiong study week. nvr study for hrs in years so find a bit tiring. study study study. i dun want to retake o lvl. sec 3 is a year to like noe the subjects well. i find out that this few days i m practising maths. my maths have shown great improvement. i think nxt i will brush my physics n bio, then follow by my humanities, then language, n lastly technical. my dnt i m doing quite well . so far no need to worry. tired arh.now the time is 10.33 am. nt going to join cell for lunch, ltr go straight to service. juz want to do sumthing enjoyable today.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/22/2007 10:20:00 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

i went for cell today as usual. today attendance not bad. after cell i went to ikea with my cell friends. the food there quite nice. quite full after eating dinner there. we walk around and go to GIANT supermarket. when i reach eunos MRT i did not straight away go home. slack around with my cell friends and talking about the church camp. my friend wanted to go. at that time i tell her to ask for her parents consent. i pray for her outside the MRT hope it will help in the chances of her mother letting her go to the church camp. for myself i don't think i am going. i found out that going to camp makes me feel lonely without really anyone accompany me.

now i am really mad with my cousin for taking my pictures. i do not like to take pictures of myself. although my cousin is in the wrong of taking my pictures but he still think he is right. hate this kind of people, see also makes me feel angry. later i sue you for privacy terms then you know. thinking about last time in primary 4. i am always bullied by people in my class. they don't like me at all. but i don't really care about them. i decided not to get bullied anymore, but my marks was really lousy so i drop to a lousier class. but until now i never regretted in going into my class because of poor marks. i am really very happy in my class, with all those different classmates. until now, i still think my primary 5 & 6 class is the best. altough in the class a classmate always tries to trick me but i know she is tricking me but i still let her make fun of me. i like friend around me. and the most respected teacher i ever got in the class.

although now i have alot of friends around me. but i still regretted about how i treat some of my most important in my primary class. sometimes when i think about it, i still feel regretted. just that one time i get angry with my friend, and she is now no longer my friend. maybe she treat me as an enemy, maybe she completly forget about me. i hope she do because i wanted so much to forget about her too. nowadays i watch my language towards my friends, and i will restrain my temper towards them. i don't want this to happen to me again. better not to be my most trusted cell friends.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/14/2007 10:56:00 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

nwadays very sianz seeing tv at home everyday. today i succeeded in finishing the show. yest i was nt in a very good mood. getting very angry day by day. dunno why it seems that i nw cannot really control my temper. one day i will flare up n hurt my near ones. today i very sad alot of tests. got maths, physics, napfa, D&T. so tired i felt like juz lying down and do nth. so meaningless. yest suppose to study together with XY. but she busy. no matter wat is it i will still fail my exam. sianz. fail is like eating rice to me. argh!!! nth to do. no one answer my call. so sianz muz do something fun. bought a tiger soft toy to soothe my sad feelings. today i think i will continue to watch corner*with love. sianz arh!!!

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/12/2007 08:14:00 PM

Sunday, April 8, 2007

nw filling up yest entry. i watch tv until 2. so no time to blog. yest i feel very sick. having serious headache n vomited ny lunch. i got the headache bcoz i watch the movie "virgin" at home. the show have scenes which the filming quality is bad, n it is dark. so my eyes get so twirl. i bought a doraemon VCD yesterday. i watch it until 1. after that i watch soccer until 2. 10 portswiss vs man U 2:1. nth to write going to church later.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/08/2007 10:48:00 AM

Saturday, April 7, 2007

yesteday i went to youth alive concert. planetshakers youth alive came. the concert is fun, but the songs a bit erm not very familiar. not sang in church at all. only beautiful saviour n jump around we sang b4. the message is quite good toking bout heroes. but the process they are syaing i have already noe who is the ultimate heroe on this earth. yest afternoo slac the whole day at home. i think today i oso like that. yest watch a movie called soul quite scary though. nth to write liao. bye bye.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/07/2007 02:09:00 PM

Thursday, April 5, 2007

yoz... finally thursday. waiting this day long time. but i oso noe at the nxt min, i will find myself finishing my weekend. time really go by very fast. that time is the one week holiday now already week 3. arghh!!! so fast going to mid year. juz going to faint when i see the weeks going pass. i still wonder why last time i felt that time is going very slow, izzit bcoz i have a lot of frenz who car bout me now? or izzit bcoz last time i do all the things is meaningless.

this year for myself the theme is studies. every yr i will have a theme for myself to improve my life, in order to focus more on things rather to confuse myself. last yr my theme is friendship, n i can confidently tell myself i have done it. maybe not he frenz in sch but the frenz outside. to me now they are all very important to me. bcoz i think that there is no levels (best frenz, hangout frenz, sch frenz, geners.) for friends. they are all equal to me.

today i pon speech day, the event is juz too sianz. i m so sad my workpiece the impt part is broken. luckily it still could be save. i feel that this week like i m so suai. nth goes well for me. this week although it is col holy week but it is still a sad week... the geog common test today is quite normal. i use up less than half an hour to fill up my brain cells though. i use my super memory to suck up all the main points. i found out that my memory is quite good. i think i can juz barely pass this test. bcoz of storing too much things in my head. a bit last min forget. i think it is very hard to score well for this sub.

let me fill up yesterday entry. yest i was too tired to use the comp. i went to mac n study maths with XY. quite hard working though. hardly to see myself like that. there is a maths Qns i dunno how to do but the teacher not around. sianz. nth much happen in sch yest. physics teacher still nvr cum. i want to ask her about me joining the youth flying club. why u nvr cum!!! nvm not in a rush to ask. got stop writng as my eyes are tired.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/05/2007 09:40:00 PM

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

today is like doing nth. physics teacher nvr cum, the whole class getting scolded by mdm tay, the whole sch kena reduce recess time. today is like so negative full of scoldings n punishment. it seem that my whole class is getting use of it. i think my class will have more ppl getting punish day by day. sianz, but really my class i think they are all good students. although vulgarities is around the class, but we noe that everyone dun mean it. they can say our class is worst than normal. n i hear comments from other normal from sec 5. they are looking down in sec 3/5. even teachers says that it is always class 3/5 is the worst class. i wanted to tell all those in normal that they dun have any rights to say us, as no matter how bad we are, we are still from the express. pls look at ur class number b4 looking down on us. n teachers i can say that the whole of 3/5 will prove all of you wrong. we will pass n let you see. i like this class, it have all kinds of diff. ppl. but all of them are good in nature n are bright students. if u are to suspend them, it is a kind of watse. today my former class gather together, they have no interest in cuming after 5. very sad to say they dun want to cum. ms chua send me the sms saying that she cannot meet up b4 5. i want to tell all of them that we are not beggars telling u all to go. we nid to pay for all of you to go leh. if u are not interested, get lost. dun give negative remarks. i think i will no longer force them. u all dun think i cum n ask u is a must. then u all r wrong. we are focusing on the quality not the quantity. if not for ms chua, this kind of things i dun think i will pay for u all to go. since u all are so negative, i got nth to say. johnny always tell me to focus in my own sch. but for myself i always wanted to reach out to others not only from my sch. that is what i wanted. nw i going to chiong my DNT theory headache siah. got to stop my writing.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/03/2007 08:04:00 PM

Monday, April 2, 2007

so fast my weekend finish liao. got tickets for youth alive concert. planetshakers is cuming. yeah!!! i like their song "pick it up". they have this lyrics saying taking my cross laying down my life. that is juz wat i wish to do. today i ask my former classmates bcoz my teacher col them to go. but it is like bcoz it is church event no one wants to go. maybe i will juz tell miss chua to meet them up before the concert. but i really want to invite them. i m a person who dun like to force anyone. i really hope that they will think bout it seriously n not thinking that it is a laughing matter. if they are willing, i will help them get there despite the limited amt of tickets. although there is still a lot of rejection but i will nvr give up.

::.DyNaStY::RaY::KiD.:: at 4/02/2007 07:31:00 PM