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What's Up With Life?

2009-01-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

I have successfully cross over 2009. so many things happen. they come and go at the same time. now the question i want to ask everyone is what's up with life nowadays. i am not only talking about my own life but also the lives of the people out of the four walls while i am still typing.

i was reading an article few weeks back during the christmas season. it is about the teenagers nowadays posting explicit photos of themselves on the net. when the parents found out about it, they did nothing. the worst thing is the teenagers are aren't abit shameful about what they have done. the parents actually commented on the article saying "i don't dare to do anything, i fear that he or she run away again."

recently, i was desperately looking for a job online. i actually check out an online singapore classifieds advertisement system almost everyday. i came across an advertisement on the job advertisement site. the advertisement is entitled 'A sad and lonely girl.' As usual my online busybody character urge me to read it. this teenage girl is actually advertising herself to a man. the advertisement says, if you ring me i will give you my everything. i was really very shock by it, just because of her emotional feelings she is willing to give an unknown man everything. i was asking myself what's up with this person life? is she so desperate for a relationship or what? the next thing i did was dropping her an sms and ask her to meet me up. in the end she didn't reply me, i hope one day a message will come in and it will be her.

recently i have been visiting seven eleven for drinks and sandwiches. there is so many seven eleven in singapore, i visiting quite a number of branches and i realise something which is very similar with all this outlets. without fail at every counter there will be a section of condoms which is being display for people to purchase. from what i know there are seven eleven almost in every part of the world. personally i have visited countless of them. regardless of whether i am overseas or in singapore. all of them have the same culture, they are open 24/7. that also means that these condoms are being sold 24/7. i was thinking to myself, why don't they sell bibles in seven eleven. condom is consider as 'safe' sex, but the bible that i am reading is saving lives guaranteed.

what's up with life nowadays? this will be the question i will be pestering God. but i still hope everything can be change for the better. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: 1 Corinthians 13:3 (New Living Translation)

3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;^[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

Happy Happy

2008-12-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

I just feel so happy. i found joy in the Lord. i feel like sharing my joy with the everyone around me. I know people think i must be crazy. but i am here to tell you that i am not. i just want to be happy. i know some people are not very used to it. but i don't care. take it or leave it. :):)

i encounter a lot of things nowadays. creepy stuff and good stuff. God is moving in a super great way in our midst. i don't want to share too much as it is quite personal. but what i can say is God is good all the times.

this year is ending soon. i can feel something that is within me which is exploding. i feel like letting out long time ago. but i found out i can't. i feel like i am inside a bottle but there is something suppressing me. maybe a corkscrew. the corkscrew may be people or problems. i just don't want to imply much. i believe God will be the one who will unleash me out of this.

today we had a strong meeting. as usual it dragged again. but it is okay as i don't have any plans after that. now i am thinking what i am going to do tomorrow. maybe make myself useful and go to some places. Amen!

Learning Day by Day: Hebrews 4:12

12 For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

Weird day :)

2008-12-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

today is a real funny day. early in the morning, my bed mattress was stolen. i was super sad, thinking that i must sleep on the floor tonight. so i pray to God. miraculously the mattress came back because of some misunderstanding that the council cleaners think that my grandmother is throwing it away.

that was the first prayer answered early in the morning. i wanted to swim this week, i even pack a bag specially for me to go swimming. i was very happy today because i can go swimming. before i left the house, i see there are alot of dark clouds. my grandmother told me that it was going to rain and ask me not to go swimming. i felt very sad again. i went to the toilet and i pray to God. Miraculously the weather turn good and i went swimming today.

that was my second prayer answered by God. I went out to buy some stuff and went swimming. while i was swimming, i took a short rest at the corner of the pool. i use all my force and punch my hand underwater, when my right hand hit my left hand, it was not painful at all. i tried the same thing on my hand above the water. my hand hurt like mad. i don't want to continue on this paragraph anymore. someone out there will know what i am driving at.

The Jesus i serve is a prayer answering God. two times in a row, my prayers are answered. Want more information on what i am talking about, you can add me at zax_4ever@hotmail.com.

why i type that, because my blog is open to everyone. feel free to contact me, i will be more than willing to talk to you. i feel very happy today because Jesus brighten it up. Amen!

Learning Day by Day: 2 Chronicles 7:14-15

14 if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. 15 Now My eyes will be open and My ears attentive to prayer made in this place.

Whatsup!

2008-12-16T16:24:00.000+08:00

2008 is going to end real soon. time flies pass so fast, i couldn't really caught hold of what is happening around me. new cell, new friends, everything also very new. new start, new beginning. what is up with that?

some people say that my way of writing my blog is like i am sharing. so i read back my posts. it is so weird, i 'talk' more in my blog than i usually talk to people. guess this is the way i am brought up. i don't really get a chance to express myself in talking but i like to write alot. although my language is not so strong, but i still love to write. oh well, it doesn't really matter. you don't need a super good voice to praise God.

few days ago, i was reading the essays that i write. you can also say that it is call sermon notes. since i don't share them, i don't call it sermon. when i study the bible, i pray then i write. after these few years have passed, i found out that i wrote quite alot. it may come in handy when i go to bible school. cannot share never mind, i still want to write more and more.

one of the essays i write is entitled Keep Moving Forward. i like this essay the most. this is also my life quote. it is an anointed essay that i don't share at all. true, we need to look forward sometimes.

so many things are happening. i was bless and i got a new guitar (don't tell the whole world about it!). i save my life while my friend was injured while training on bike. it is true that God's grace is upon my life. doing new stuff for quiet time, instead of burying myself with biblical knowledge.

i went to two prayer meeting yesterday, it was all spirit led. good that i don't waste my time on other things. the devil is at work again, wrecking people's family and all sorts of things. real angry with him, give me a chance and i will punch your face.

but God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: 2 Corinthians 10:3

3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh.

Happy Birthday

2008-11-30T19:01:00.000+08:00

First, i want to wish Happy Birthday to myself, Chermaine, and Ben. it is such a coincidence that our birthdays fall on the very same week. i can just pity my friends who fork out money to buy presents for us.

i am one year older, don't really feel any difference. after having that life changing experience. i made a few weird new life resolutions. first one is not to comment about anything. whether the person is doing well or not. i just feel that i should not comment on them. (unless they are making real big mistake.) it is just that i do not want to hurt anyone. second is not to compromise. being a "super nice guy" is not easy. sometimes i just want my way to be done. i have compromise too much in the past that some of them are already climbing on top of my head. this teach me a lesson not to compromise easily. last but not least, don't be straightforward even if got something to correct the person. I learn something. a person will never really learn unless they manage to convince themselves. might as well leave the job to them.

i have learn and gain alot this year. i was thinking whether should i strive to be a leader or just be glad being a small member forever. i got my answer, no matter where i am, just be glad to serve.

i have been serving real hard these few days. took a day off on my birthday. start off my engine next day in the morning. i did videoing for my teacher's wedding. i feel so accomplished after doing it. straight after that, took a twenty minute lunch break, and i went to do videoing for the retreat. I continue the flow and did the last night session for the whole retreat. after that i feel so filled by the holy spirit.

at night i went to make chermaine's birthday gift. A cardboard guitar. I could have done a better job if the time wasn't so limited. i stayed up the whole night making it. i manage to have a short nap and i manage to get less than thirty minutes of sleep. i felt like a zombie when i went for first service. equipped with my black shirt, prepare to do my duty for third service. i was really very tired. but i manage my physical tiredness and complete the duty. After that went down to do sound for the class. finally my serving for five duties for two whole days are over.

i have to admit that i am really physically tired, but in spiritual i felt so accomplished and so spirit-filled like never before. I guess when there is gain there also bound to e lost. even now as i am typing, my eyes are becoming like mashimaro's eyes. i guess i will have to stop. by the way, i am too tired to post the learning day by day. so i leave you readers a great chapter. read up Isaiah 58. Amen! :)

nothing on

2008-11-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

Exams gonna be over.

thinking of updating my blog. it seems so dead la. anyways after my exams are over i can update more. so long for now.

Thinking again...

2008-09-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

15 days to O levels...(this is the correct one)

it have been a very interesting week for me. i mean last week though. last week zone service was great. leaders stepping down and new leaders rising up. there are good times with Cameron and Delia though. But everyone need to move on. i am very happy for them though. now with a new leader, it is time for zone 2 to rise up to a higher level though. i am expecting that.

it is actually quite interesting when i look back in my past memories. one day i sat down and think after i talk to one of my sheep. the things i talk to her is fully about the bible. it was not a bible study though. it is just a normal bible talk. we end off our conversation (because she was in a rush) with a question that she asked. " why do you know so much about the Word?" i answer her very simply Read the Word and Follow God. after that question i went back to think about it. i asked myself this question in practical terms. since when in my spiritual life did i acquire such knowledge. i finally learn that my biblical knowledge really comes from the old gen 2.3 when we were closely guided. i believe this not only applies to me.

of course i don't mean i learn nothing in gen 2.2. thanks to the training in old 2.3, i became very independent in learning the Word. i don't rely on anyone, still asking my dozens questions though. i learn christian values in gen 2.2. i learn about accountability, going home early (trying to keep my curfew on weekends too), being a good testimony (still being chase around by DM for doing street-e), importance of outreach, leadership and many many more. gen 2.2 is a place that i learn about life journey, old gen 2.3 is a place more of bible training. If next time i have a chance to lead a cell group, i would really want my cell group to be equip with both factors.

so scary, exams are coming. (don't sound convincing though) everyday study and study and still studying. weekends still studying. grr.... when is exams going to be over. i may be lack of preparation but i still want the exams to finish as soon as possible. why O levels is not now. i would much prefer if it is earlier. then i can enjoy longer holidays. but the days are number... but when i check my exam timetable, i find it real dumb. 1 month to take 6 subjects worth of papers. actually 2 weeks will be more than enough. but it will give us buffering time to study the other subjects during the intervals. (last minute studies just won't workout) just gotta look at the bright side sometimes. This is a Singaporean Life!!!

someone talk to me recently. it was a really shocking conversation. whatever he told me just struck me. until now i still can't get the conversation out of my mind. it was so personal that it is almost impossible for anyone to know about it. how this person know what is troubling me for the past few months. i didn't tell anyone, the only person so far i told is only Jesus. this is only one instances, there are also seasons in my life that people do that to me. scary but i get valuable advices out from it. it is good thing, that my prayers are actually answered through these conversations. We serve a good God who answer prayers. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Nehemiah 4:9

9 Nevertheless we made our prayer to our God, and because of them we set a watch against them day and night.

Okay...

2008-09-22T17:37:00.000+08:00

32 more days to O's.

counting down day by day. praying for blessings for my exams. studying very hard everyday. school have been great today. my friend is back in health again. Hee Hee. now i am the sick cat. praying for healing too. i have been feeling very very peaceful. i seems not really excited about everything.

some of my friends find me very bored. whatever sms they send me, trying to start a conversation. i will usually give them a one word response which just shuts down the whole conversation. except official stuff though. the find me so dead. i don't know why i am like that nowadays. (actually it started from today though, still receiving feed backs)

everything i do is ok. whatever i reply is ok. i find myself boring too. i going to be a boring person till i finish my exams. then i can be the funny person again. but i am still overflowing with my sense of humour. i just couldn't help it. once in a while crack some lame jokes to cheer my sad friends up.

there are also times that i feel down too. just recently, one day i just cut off my phone. wanted some peaceful moments to think about God and life. i just gotta do it sometimes. not being push by phone calls and smses all the time. maybe i will do it more often from now on. at times i just need to get off from all these communications to make myself really relax not being force and push by people.

the day that i don't look forward to is coming. there is going to be major changes in the zone and the cell. these few days i have been thinking. maybe if we multiply it will really benefit us. i actually encourage the idea which in the past, it is something that i will never do. it is time now. zone 2 is going up to another level. Praise God for that.

in my life, there are ups and downs. in gen 2.2 there are not really any down moments. last week and these few days, when i think about the past. i was not even interested in thinking of it anymore, moreover talk about it. whatever is past is past. i can no longer find that past back again. might as well think far and look into the bright future ahead. KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!

after thinking about spiritual walk and life. i really need to look for a person like a friend who will understand me. i don't like being solo. tried talking to a few people, our visions, goals and mindset are just so different. very hard to find similar people. i just have to live with people who cannot really click with me. Amen!

Learning Day by Day: Romans 15:7

7 Therefore receive one another, just as Christ also received us,^[a] to the glory of God.

Get deep down...

2008-09-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

deep to the down to the deep deep down. that was my camp group cheer. it was a very interesting time for me. the messages for the services was great. i used to have the wrong mindset that i go for camps to experience God and attend the services. the games are not important at all. Zone 2 camp makes me excited because it was bible games. my favourite. no need to chiong so hard to win.

how is life? the usual question that i ask everyone when i give them a call. i keep asking others but no one ask me yet. i heard different answers from different people. after all those conversations. i hear life problems, problems that they face in their everyday life. there are times that i wonder, why don't you seek God instead. that should be the place that we talk to God like a friend and pray to him for an answer. even if you do not get an answer, at least you are accountable to God.

i came across weird blogs. they write weird entries that no one understands. i thought a blog is to express yourself and sum up your everyday life. writing weird stuff just shows that you are hiding alot of things to yourself. having such privacy in a blog just shows that you need someone to be there for you. i am getting too sidetrack.

back to life again. my best friend is sick, i got no one sitting beside me now. hope she will get well soon and talk to me again. although the things we talk are very lame. but we still enjoy each other lameness. i am very open when i talk to her though. there is no such thing as secrets between the both of us. but when we get into spiritual topics, both of us will find a gap between us because she is an unbeliever. so sad. :(

oh wells, i have been praying for her for two years from now. i really hope that she come back to the Lord again then there will no longer be a gap in our topics. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Psalm 32:11

11 Be glad in the LORD and rejoice, you righteous;
And shout for joy, all you upright in heart!

How is MONDAY?

2008-09-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

Monday. life is usual in school as it is. a few adjustment to the timetable. no more mother-tongue sleeping periods for me. that is the only on monday i can regain my attention and move on to other periods without sleeping again. so sad. i guess got to take caffeine again. (that is killing me) now everything in school is intensive after intensive programs. guess it is to help us.

last week friday makes me sit down and seriously think about alot of things. i spend one hour on sunday to sum up everything that i have listen and learn from the people. i have a few conclusions about some things. i finally know where i am heading towards after my O's. by praying and thinking of that make my hair drop quite alot by scratching. it is great to know where to start and move when i know where is my direction.

i am so excited, I WANT TO SHARE IT TO SOMEONE!!! it is time for me to move on to look for new friends that i can share my dreams, visions and goals. i am now on a search to find my shadrech, mishech and abed nego. please register yourself with me. lol.

the parcel of learning is fun. i learn alot of things in it. i want to go to one place that i can excel. not a spiritual place. it is a place out of Singapore. i maybe able to go there. that will take quite a long time.

Learning Day by Day: Psalm 144:15

15 Happy are the people who are in such a state;
Happy are the people whose God is the LORD!

Nothing on....

2008-09-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging again. some of my friends says that my blog is lagging. so i decided to update it. so many things happen in the past few weeks. just two weeks, so many things change for the better and for the worse. now there is so much things that i don't know where to start from. maybe i want to just keep things simple down here.

yupp. first the showcase, it was a great success. so many souls were saved by Jesus just in one single day. it makes me rejoices to see people coming to God day by day. it is really a fantastic feeling. i see tears from the people's eyes, genuinely touch by God. remind me of the past. but we got to keep moving forward.

In our lives, there are times that we want to move forward but we are being pull down by people and things around us. it is like my class. when someone wanted to excel they pull them down. i thought we are friends. that is the best idea. how many times in your lives, true friends are the ones who support you in your trials. true enough. but how many times and still counting, sometimes they are the ones who pull you down.

that was random, back to it. cell growth have been wonderful. it is really very encouraging to see it. i am reaching 16 real soon. have been asking myself questions and asking God too. where do i see myself in the cell group next year. i want to change, i want to excel, i want to KEEP MOVING FORWARD. that is always what i wanted. it is easier to be said than to be done though.

so many things happen. my Os are knocking on my doorstep. it is time for me to be prepared to answer that door. this will be the ending phase for part of my life. it is time for me to take a rest before starting another phase. i am excited for it though. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: John 7:37

37 On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink.

Getting older....

2008-08-20T19:02:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I want to thank someone who has always been with me during the down moments of my life. This person give me great advices and watching me grow during these years as a christian. Today is his birthday, I just sent him some birthday wishes. He is my favourite brother Jasper. Happy Birthday to you!!!

I wouldn't have walk through so much without this brother. He has always been with me in this walk and he is now moving on with God to the young adults. The best part of him supporting me all this while is that he is never once in my cell group.

As he get older, this also means that I am getting older too. Time have really fly pass. For what i know i have been in generations for such a long time. I have left 2 months in my school. It is time for me to move on. But i still don't know where to move on. I really hope to find the answer ASAP. What school i am going? What school i am going to take charge? I currently have no idea. Never mind next time i will know.

This is life. Moving on and on and on. The cycle renews and you start all over again in a new place. So i must learn to adapt in every moment with God. Amen. :)

Learning Day by Day: Ecclesiastes 2:2

Desert

2008-08-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

I was thinking about the post that Kevin dedicated for me in his blog couple of days ago. He wrote something "Dare you say God's daughters can't do much, you've just been proven wrong big time." in his blog. I am quite shock by this dedication.. Getting my results prove one thing. It does not rely on me but it fully rely on God.

I am recently hook on a video. There is a new song on the new hillsong album this is our God. The desert song. She said something "my circumstance, my season doesn't change what God calls me to do."

Something that the Holy spirit struck me. Sometimes you know what you are doing for God, but you never truly understand what you are really doing for God. The question now is, Do i understand? Do we understand? Understanding and doing is 2 different things. Maybe i can find the answer to my question through God.

Have been playing the guitar, playing various songs. I found out that i don't really like playing the guitar. I just don't like to play with instruments. Sometimes when i lead for prayer meetings. i felt that i am playing for the sake of playing. i am going to stop playing the guitar for as far as i know.

I have my GCE english oral today. I still remember what happen during my prelims. i got back my report sheet. I fail my conversation. she highlighted the point that i spread gospel during the conversation. in Singapore's law, no religious content should be involve in your exams. I didn't care much and i just did it. i was telling myself, So what if you fail me. I am proud of my God. This time the topic is totally off from religion so i didn't get a chance to share. :( But if i am given a chance to choose whether to share, i will still do it.

Exams are piling like mountain top high. But it will truly determine what i will do in the future, i really want to pursue Theology after my diploma. But i will still wait and see God's calling for me. I don't want to retake my exams. So i will work double hard and go to the college i want to go to.

From here i just want to wish everyone i know all the best for their papers.

Learning Day by Day: Galatians 5:1 Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free,^[a] and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.

Thinking

2008-07-26T04:49:00.000+08:00

I was brought into thinking this past few weeks. I was thinking what will happen to Bedok Green sec if i leave the school, will there be someone who catch the baton of fire and run another lap in that school, will the fire died down even before it have even been passed. For me, now it is only a matter of 2 months. I asked myself, what is that i exactly want to see in my school before i leave. I already have the answer to my question 2 years ago. It is just that i hide it too well that no one sees it until i myself become so numb about it become more and more forgetful about that desire i once held.

2 years ago, i was not alone in the race. I have someone with me. Both of us held the same desire for that school. We cried, we hunger, we became ver desperate. We said it together, "We want revival!" We talk about our plans, in 2006 dec. we discuss and wanted bedok green to reach the house of 30. We called that minimum. Our maximum that we wanted is 1500 of our school members. each and everyone get saved. We did things in 2007. Individual school-E, after school pray and reach out to people. At march 2007 we had one salvation, Kevin join the race.

We pursue the vision, having the desire of wanting more and more. Something that really make me really wanted to give up everything is during July 2007. Someone left the race, give up everything that we once thought that is most important. The person who have once supported me on the race, cheer each and other up. Having great plans and dreams. That person left us. I have lost my encourager. I wanted to give up, i was beaten down very badly. it took me quite some time to stand up again.

I finally stand up during 2008, i want to achieve something before i leave. I have not been seeing numbers, but what i want to see is people getting touch and get saved in the end. It is never about numbers, i can see improvement. We had our first launch official prayer meeting in Bedok Green. 18 of us plus 2 other teachers gathered to pray for Revival. Everyone was so serious, desperate and hungry to see a change in our school. I believe we all can achieve it. Amen!

Learning Day by Day: Ezra 9:8

8 And now for a little while grace has been shown from the LORD our God, to leave us a remnant to escape, and to give us a peg in His holy place, that our God may enlighten our eyes and give us a measure of revival in our bondage.

Observing

2008-07-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

Last week i didn't really blog because i am caught up with some things. Last week is a super qianda week for me. Nothing really seems to go right. i wanted to share it to someone, but that someone actually stood me up. aiya nevermind lah. i am just happily seeing everything as nevermind. when i don't feel like sharing, people keep asking me. i still feel there is no need for me to share. i will tell you guys eventually in due time.

Today i observe my surroundings. I was carefully listening to the conversation that my friends had. it is so retarded. after maths they start discussing about this so called "ART" movie acted by one very famous Hongkong actor. they say that this "ART" actually won some reputable awards. i was like .... I would very much like to know how they see this show. I really don't understand what is happening to the media nowadays.

I was talking with Yunhe yesterday about some show that are broadcast at the prime tv time from 8 - 10. we actually discuss about the recent tv show that is air at 9 every night. what the show talk about is divorcing and divorcing. i want to go to the channel forum and ask them whether is it they lack of ideas to do show.

What will this generation become in the later years while the people around us are bombarded with rubbish shows. I personally went to catch 5 mins of the divorce tv show, almost every moment of it they are saying about divorcing and how the the family is being broken by that. I find it very nonsense, but some actually find it interesting and discuss about it in school.

i believe there will be a change. God will definitely do something about it. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: 1 John 5:4 For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our^[a] faith.

The Panda Showdown

2008-06-30T17:26:00.000+08:00

Today i spend my time after school catching movie with Cheryl at tampines. It is a good movie. Although this is a secular movie, but i gain much interesting revelations about the movies. Especially those interesting quotes in it. Although it is animated but it is good.

I always get inspiration for my messages from animated movies, like ratatouille, meet the robinsons and many more others. I always believe that God is speaking to me even in the lamest moments in the movie. True enough i got some few inspiring verse. I am not going to share it here but it will be on my new messages. Nice movie, there are quite a number of biblical expressions too. Remember to watch it with your friends. Amen!

P.S to someone: You are not The one and only KungFu Panda!

People VS Leaders

2008-06-27T20:27:00.000+08:00

I was on my way home just now from tampines. I am really very tired now but i still feel a need to share. I was alone on Bus 18 on my way back. I think because i am alone, i seems to be like some "Emo" kid sitting on the bus eating my cornflakes. Actually I am very deep in my thoughts after having a good talk with Janice personally about my Life. I was thinking about People and Leaders.

I am actively participating in ministries so there are quite a number of leaders above me. So there is no such thing as i don't understand how to submit to a leader. Because my leaders from the start train me to be submissive to them. That is why i do not have any trouble on that. The thing is whether is there a fine line between the people and the leaders.

1) Can you leaders be your friend?

Leaders are your friends originally, but when it come to a point when we are very submissive to them that it became a point that they become a friend that you are submitted to but no longer a normal friend to talk your heart out. As time goes by, you will no longer share much about your life with them but you have learn to be submitted only.

2) Does that mean you cannot share to your leaders?

Of course you can share. But for me i think there should be a balance between you treating a person as a friend or as a leader. If you treat your leaders more towards the friends side there may be some kind of leader's respect being decrease. If you treat your leaders more towards the leaders side, you will be submitted but become less open to them. slowly there will be a huge wall build up between the both of you.

3) So how do we maintain the balance?

Ask God to maintain that balance for you. We are still Man in nature, it is almost impossible for us to maintain that balance without having any conflicts and disagreement sometimes. But with God nothing is impossible. So i believe if we place that leaders and people relationship in His hands, He will help us handle it real well.

Even I myself sometimes have it hard to be open to my leaders. That is why i never stop trying and keep in in prayer for God to handle them. In my Christian walk with God there will be even more people being place above me. All the leaders that is above us are all place in the Will of God. If we try to make a change to it, does it mean that you are telling Him that He is making a wrong choice for you. So do try to maintain that balance, because they are place above you for a reason. Amen. :)

Hebrews 13:17

17 Obey those who rule over you, and be submissive, for they watch out for your souls, as those who must give account. Let them do so with joy and not with grief, for that would be unprofitable for you.

Learning Day by Day: Matthew 28:19

19 Go therefore^[a] and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

Loner in your mission field

2008-06-26T17:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i spend the night on conference call with a few of my cell members. We are talking about life in the school. Some of us are facing spiritual warfare in our schools, homes and relationships (friends of course). As we talk about it, almost all of us have something to share. Actually i am not surprise at all, because even I myself are facing problems. Of course I won't share it here.

We are talking about our lives in school. We are actually talking about one of our newcomer being a loner in the school. Yunhe and I feels that is nothing new to us. For Yunhe case is because people have been avoiding him. For my case, I just prefer to be alone most of the the time. I am not the "Solo Kid" in the class. It is just that i do not want to stay around with my classmates and talk about redundant topics all day. I find that wasting of time and i prefer to be at some staircase way listening to P&W songs and have some quiet praying.

I have been hearing from different people around me. Telling me about their issues and still issues. The neverending issues in their lives. After having a good talk with them, I begin to examine myself. Do I have issues in my life? Yes i still have issues in my life. When i think again, is these issues bothering me? No it doesn't. For my case, i don't think it is bothering me because i am not holding on to it.

Does that mean i don't need to solve these issues? Yes, I still need to solve these issues. But i have make that choice to leave these issues at the cross. I mean anyone and everyone can also do it. It just that whether you want to hold on to it or let it go. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: John 17:17 17 Sanctify them by Your truth. Your word is truth.

The Constant Crossover

2008-06-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

I am still not recover yet, my cough have been getting from bad to worse. I really hope it can recover before the start of my Oral Exams. I was eating my dinner just now, i am thinking back about the line that I have cross over during the night of the retreat. Suddenly this story came into my mind. So i think i want to share it.

Two teenagers are at the altar call behind a line that the Pastor have lay before them. They are having a little short conversation after making their decision.

Mr A : Hey B are you crossing over the line?

Mr B: Why should I tell you, it is between God and I. ( sounds like myself )

When the Pastor ask for a call. Both of them responded and cross over the line. Mr B ask Mr A why he cross over the line. Mr A answered "When I first receive my salvation, I have already cross over the line. This is just another line that I want to crossover, leaving the the world behind me Again."

This story depict of two saved person crossing the line of no turning back. I remember people crossing over the line. It is truly a line that there is no turning back. But there are times we need to cross over the line again and again to overcome ourselves. I was talking to Daphne few days ago. We are also talking about the line that we must cross constantly.

We are thinking there is almost no reason that we don't cross that line. If at the start we never cross the line, i don't even know what i will end up to be. Still sitting down at the void deck "slacking" waiting to get myself caught or getting into trouble and end up ruining my future. So eventually i decided to cross that line.

The Cross before me, The World behind me. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Galatians 2:20

20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

The Narrow Way

2008-06-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

I am so physically tired in school today. Early in the morning i plan what i want to do. I decided to pamper myself and go watch kung fu panda after school. But i still think watching movie is a waste of time and money. Something that my friend said really struck me. "You have been so involve in your church activities, don't you think you are really getting away from the world." I understand what she meant. I like it or not, I still cannot deny the fact that I am living in the world that consist of secular activities.

I immediately spend some time to ask God about it. He encouraged me to continue the things i have been doing in church. I was reminded again about the verse in Matthew 7:13.

The Narrow Way

13 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because^[a] narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

I have been feeling very lonely lately, I thought it was just that I am too free to do things that is why I feel lonely. I went out frequently last week with my friends. I was in a big crowd most of the time. During that time, I seem to have fun in the things i am doing, I laugh, i joke around with them. But i still feel lonely.

I asked God about it, He told me "Aren't you glad you are walking in the narrow way?" I am glad that I am walking on the narrow way but I want my peers to be with me. I know my reply was real dumb because I have already understand in my knowledge that great leaders walk alone. But God answered me again " If your heart is burden with your peers, why didn't you seek them first but seek Me instead."

After the whole conversation, I finally understood. Of all the loneliness i have been feeling, in it I have truly learn to seek God even for the smallest thing that is happening in my life. I don't seek my peers, seek my friends, seek my leaders, But it became an automatic thing for me to seek God first out of all the things.

After all the conviction, God reminded me a quote that someone told me before. "Even the person you trusted the Most in your Life disappoint you sometimes, because they are still Man in nature, but God never once disappoint us." This quote have been in my mind all this while. This is what i used to encourage myself when people around me disappoints me.

I am really glad that I am now walking the narrow way. Come to think of it my peers will one day leave me eventually. I really learn from God, and i now on my way in learning to seek Him at any moment. Although I am lonely but there is still Jesus besides me. I am contented for that, and i am willing to exchange anything to have more of Him but less of me. Amen! :)

Learning Day by Day: Romans 8:37 37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

Stomp BBQ

2008-06-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

This is the first evangelistic outreach for BGSS. This BBQ is specially for BGSS people. It is held on 20th June. There is 25 people from BGSS (excluding myself) , after real counting half is from my class and another half is from various classes around the school. I got 1 salvation in total.

2 months ago

I was asked by one of my leaders to do an outreach event for my school. After considerations I decided to do a BBQ after all. I design a nice flyer to advertise for the whole event. I never really did any planning due to the events which is so tied up during the whole of June holidays.

1 month ago

Yunhe, Jeremy and I went down to my school to do Street-E on the last day of the school before the June holidays. Although the response was not that good, but a few agreed to reconsider about it. To us, it is already an encouragement because we are not totally ignored. On the Saturday of that week i went down to book the pit. It was consider last minute but we are bless on a spot which is convenient since it is near marine cove.

Counting down 5 days

I finally get myself to settle and carefully plan out the tasks that is needed to be fufiled. I went online to settle the BBQ food and prayed about the event. I was sure I am to share the edited version of Keep Moving Forward. So i prepared the message briefly. But due to the change of events i found out that i am short of cash to fund for the BBQ. So i approach my cell members for help in funding for the BBQ too. after the money i place mostly, I found out there are more money left to fund for other outreaches. We have been tuly bless.

The Great Day

Finally, It was the day of the BBQ. Everything is carried out as planned. The guys went to get the drinks and the Cheryl and I went down to the BBQ place to collect the food. WE carried the BBQ pit for the food like mad. The things are so heavy anddue to my health problems i got to rest along the way. I fell like knocking the heads of the guys. Everything was going well. I lost my cool quite a number of times, that must be special time as I never get angry before. I guess I just want everything to be all right. Everyone came and enjoy themselves. Kimsiong and Sabby shared their testimony and it has been a good response for all of them. At least they never walk off in the middle.

God have been truly helping us throughout the whole event, by funding and providing us in various. I believe in the day that would come when the people around me will be saved. Amen! :)

A Great Revelation

2008-06-23T18:31:00.000+08:00

I have been reading a new book called the Pillars Of Faith by Dr Brian J. Bailey. It is a great book. From this book i learn a new verse which eventually became my daily prayer. I decided to be open this once and share to others about this great verse that became my daily prayer.

2 Peter 1:5-8

Fruitful Growth in the Faith

5 But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, 6 to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, 7 to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love. 8 For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

This is a great verse to me. I got a revelation from this Word during my devotions. At first when I first read this verse, to me it is a good point to learn. Nothing more about it. To me, It is just another Word that I read from the book. But God reminded to me of this verse that I read and told me to meditate on it. I thought that I have already understand how it meant, But i still went to meditate on it during my quiet time. I read it again during the night of Encounter Retreat. I got a very weird feeling, I can't exactly explain how I feel but it was really very weird. I shared it the book to one of my zone member but that feeling never left me at all.

The Revelation really struck me is during the last night of the whole Retreat. During the altar call, every one was desperate for God, crying and weeping. Personally I was also at the altar call, have the urge to cry but didn't cry at all. Suddenly I heard God telling me to open my eyes. When I open my eyes, what i saw was desperate people kneeling and weeping. God told me, "Isn't that common?" At that point of time I didn't know how to answer Him. I was again reminded by the verse. He answer me again, " That is Faith." I finally understood. Everyone was desperate because they have the Faith that God will make a change in their Lives.

I asked again about my disappointment in the people I see always kneeling, weeping for a change in the Altar Call. Proclaiming themselves "Change" after leaving the Altar Call. But once again seeing them going back the same old same old and having the cycle of "Change" in their lives. God told me something very truthful, He told me that even He have been disappointed alot of times. He told me not to be disappointed but to live the life myself. I totally agreed to that.

The whole thing really spark off a change in myself that i am now building the pillars of Faith in my life. I have never once share this to anyone, not even to my leaders. It is another learning point to learn from God. So Live The LIfe! Amen. :)

Tied Down....

2008-06-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

I have been to Gen Conference, Dr Bailey night meetings, zone camp, and encounters retreat. i have really experience God in a way i never experience before. All the while i have been feeding myself in the Word. every time in the Word. It became a habit that I get to digest in it too fast. That i need to be constantly fed by online pod-casts, video pod-cast, online sermons. I am now buried by christians books, mostly by dr brian bailey. have been fed greatly through the whole holiday.

I don't know what happen to myself, i become so stretch until i am like a piece of rubber band. i am to my limits already. please do not add on to my responsibility. i may break down anytime. i fell so sick on tuesday that i cannot got up from my bed. i stayed on my bed till like 12 noon. i think this was brought forward when i do duty and attended 3 services straight. after everything my head is spinning. but i really feel very sick. i climb of bed with my blur blur face and my dead voice. i went back to sleep two times in a day. i finally have my senses right when i really woke up at 7 pm. woke up to eat dinner and i K.O again at 12 midnight.

today morning i was coughing like mad at home, but i remember i got so much things to settle within a day. i called jeremy and joey to help me out. but in the end both of them are so late that i decided to do everything alone. i went down to the bbq wholesale place and did every order. i wanted help but there was no help given. i still feel very sick but went ahead to do some sports with jeremy they all. it is not that i don't know how to take care of myself but i believe sports will make me healthier.

i really believe that God will provide and fund for the whole BBQ thing for BGSS. I believe souls will be saved since so much effort is put in. Amen. :)

Studying brings weariness

2008-06-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

In Ecclesiastes 12:11-12, The words of the wise are like goads, and the words of scholars are like well-driven nails, given by one The words of the wise are like goads, and the words of scholars are like well-driven nails, given by one Shepherd. 12 And further, my son, be admonished by these. Of making many books there is no end, and much study is wearisome to the flesh. I don't like studying. Especially the education in Singapore.

Just now i was scolded and nagged by my father. Angry until I want to explode. He claims that I didn't study, when try to tell him that I did study for it. I just get scolded back. So i keep quiet.

People have to learn to listen. I have been learning to listen for the past 16 yrs of my life. Maybe i should learn to speak up instead of listening. When i speak up, No one actually want to even listen to my one sentence. Although i am happy because this situation only happens at home.

I have been mugging for days, from monday to friday go to school mugged, saturday after zone service mugged and after service mugged again. I don't find joy in doing it, So what ever i have done it doesn't really go into my heart. Studying for the sake of studying. I may really go crazy one day.

I was thinking of my future plan few days ago. I saw the ZMIS ad on the sunday bulletin. I want to go for a degree in Theology. But i don't think anyone would allow me to do that. I want doesn't mean I can.

Maybe i should make a change. With this i conclude. Amen!

01052008

2008-04-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

Thursday- it is the late night of wednesday. talking to some of my cell members on the phone just now. i am feeling much more better than on sunday. apart on feeling down and stuff like that. my health have been going down because of sleepiness nights and pushing myself too hard on sports. i have been absent from gym for a few weeks from now. i know if i continue the way i do my sports. i will break down eventually or even right now as i am typing. i know for myself that i am already at my limit of my body that i could extend no more. extending it some more will only cause myself to break down. i don't fell sick so easily, but nowadays i will get flu, fever and headache.

i was feeling quite down on monday, can say that i am emoing. didn't really care about my surroundings. my friend cheer me up by giving me papers to let me draw my favourite perspective drawings. but my drawing is getting uglier as i don't think i am not in the mood to draw anyway. i went to play arcade. spend 2 bucks only. because i lost in initial D and ghost squad because my eyes are very very tired, cannot see the gear properly. i finally know that if i don't have enough rest, it slows down my reaction. have been feeling much more better. back to my old joking self. hope i don't get emo anymore. i felt sorry because it affects the people around me. Amen!

30042008

2008-04-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

Wednesday- finally i have a chance to blog. this few days have been mugging like crazy

26042008

2008-04-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

Saturday- this few weeks have been thinking and thinking alot about the things that has happen around me. why until now i still cannot exceed that limit. maybe my time is not up yet. i would want to pray for patience for it to really happen one day. but i also hope it won't be that fast. today have fun in the zone outing. but abit of complications in the end. anyways it is all settle. going to take a rest before going for 1st service tml. niughtzz. anyways it is 12.20 now. Amen!

20042008

2008-04-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

Sunday- today went to first service, after that eat KFC and then 3rd service got duty and then went kiliney to discuss some stuff and then what did i do? study. i felt very sick when i am doing my duty. i saw split images on the camera screen. i found out only around 7 pm that i am running a fever, and my mind is not focus at all. i have been thinking of some things. i got a super negative thought that i got it on friday. that thought is not even worth mentioning. but i thank God for helping me to get rid of that thought. Amen!

16042008

2008-04-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

Wednesday- these few weeks will be very busy for me. i have been bound by my school night study programme. i have tonnes of things to do before friday. luckily friday i don't have night study. got to unwind myself on friday and on the weekends. i have been worrying about some things. i found out that my limit is still there. no matter how much i can endure, there is a limit. this is a quote i got from an anime that i have been watching nowadays. i hope that god can extend my limit to abit more. so that i can can also extend myself to that limit. Amen!

Thursday 10042008

2008-04-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

Thursday- Today my school had our speech day, and the entrepreneur's day. my class set up a stall today. i lost my cool quite a number of times just within today. i have been praying for this event to be successful. luckily there are people who actually came to play the games.

Early in the morning, i receive an unpleasant sms. can say i was quite affected by it. have been praying since then. i found out something very important, there is actually a limit on the things we can do. i found out that i was limited in my ways. and whatever i can do is this much. i always wanted to exceed the limit, it seems like no matter what i do, nothing can change it. being limited isn't what i want to do. i believe i may lost this soul, but there are more to come. no matter what i can do now is to reach out to other people so that i will not regret on the last day not having the chance to reach out to them. Amen.

Tuesday 08042008

2008-04-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

Tuesday- I have decided to stop blogging on blogger instead continue from here instead. however whatever is written here will be cross-posted. Today is a great day i can say. i talk to a backslider about christ once again, letting him understand that christianity doesn't stop only after him saying the sinners prayer. after a good talk, he decided to believe in Jesus again. Amen! he also promise that he will continue to go for cell group and services more frequently. we did a promise between him, God and i. it was so incredible, i don't know how to put this in words. when i was saying the sinners prayer with him, i felt such a strong presence of God upon that place. it is really His presence weighing like upon my shoulders. I was so touched being able to sense such great presence once again. i was very happy for him. Although he gave me only 7 months of belief. but i told him something, if you experience something and you want to continue from there 7 months is just a small time line. i believe God will let him follow Him for not only 7 months, but 7 years or 77 years and many many more years. I totally believe what God will do to him during the 7 months. He is now trying to ask his parents whether to attend the zone 2 bible camp. i really hope that he can be there and experience even more.

In the early morning, about 6-7 o'clock. i receive a sms from a friend who is trying to find someone who can share the gospel and saying the sinners prayer in hokkien to another friend grandmother. i was very concern about it. i reply that i don't mind trying to sharing in a dialect i know. but i am also not very good in that dialect. i didn't think twice and wanted to go to the hospital straight away to share the gospel with her. but was hinder by some school stuff, and my friend replied saying that is is not convenient for me to go also. i will visit his grandmother someday around this week maybe. Great stuff happen today, and i must prepare myself for the upcoming speech day. responsibility weighing upon me, but i believe after this week i will gain more wisdom that i never had before. Amen!

2008-04-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

Friday- i didn't have my cell dinner today, instead i actually slack my whole day at home. i am still thinking what i actually can do for my cell. in spite of all the disput and miscommunication, i have been thinking. what i can actaully do for the cell. or juts be a spectator to see how things go. few months ago, i wrote about waking up my idea, but have i really been shaken, or am i just doing some preparation if a change is going to happen. when there is a change there is bout to be growth. in fact i felt myself growing in this new cell, maybe it is good for a new change to happen. i am now actually expecting another big change in my life. i still remember myself celebrating my 14th birthday with some of my cell members, but now i have been counting down for my 16th birthday. by then i can officially play pool, watch NC 16 movies, but most importantly i can finally stay up until after 11pm. muahaha. hey guys i can finally thon with you guys in public places by then. heehee. no more restrictions until further notice. Amen!

2008-04-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

Tuesday- afew unhappy things happen these few day. especially sunday. actually i went online on sunday too, but i just don't felt like posting up what had happen. i mean since the thing is over, it is quite pointless for me to repeat. let whatever is past let it past. holding on to it, will only make yourself feel terrible. today i am quite happy, i have my phone back, now i can think of getting a new phone. muahaha. i have been thinking of O2, a brand that not alot of people has use before. trying to be unique. i heard a very devastating news today. i felt so sad for the person, because i know the man have not know Jesus in the last of his breathe. i am now not in the stats to comment anything, i just want to end this post. Don't walk up to the judgement and then regret for all the things you have done. Amen!

2008-03-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Friday- intresting day. i skip detention, because i just cannot find the teacher. i find myself very weird. no ones look for the teacher for detention. anyways i skip that. just cam back from cell dinner a couple of hours ago. our cell are like having personal conversations here and there. everyone looks very tired, i guess because some of them came from school and suff like that. i am the most energetic, because i have slept for 5 hours before i go and meet them. the location of the dinner is at 85. so near my house lah. it will just take me 5 mins to get there. i walk so slowly that i use 10 mins. just because i know that the others are late, so i just take my time. went for a walk with annabel, getting more understanding in what she has been going through, and i tell her some personal stuff too. i believe some of us are facing problems in these few weeks. including my self too. it is quite different from the past. last time i use to talk with leaders for hours, for them to give me advice, and help me in it. two years have passed, i have soon become independent, and try to settle things myself. and when they ask you what happen, you will just say actually nothing has happen. i believe i am just cheating myself, i could have done like what i did in the past. talk to them for solution. but slowly i have learn to run away, giving myself excuses that nothing has happen. but keeping those things to yourself, you will feel guilty by not being accountable to your own leaders. this few weeks, i felt so terrible, weak, and tired. i manage to pluck up my courage to talk to my ex-shepherd. she give me advice. i nearly broke down at that point of time, but i choose to call my leader up and talk. it have been a fruitful talk, after it i felt so refresh. although the problem is still there unsolve, but i have manage to pull myself up. although nowadays i still feel like that, but at least now i learn that i am not alone. God is with me all this while. being independent is good, but we must learn that not everytime we are strong enough to handle them. Amen!

2008-03-27T20:21:00.002+08:00

Thursday- I have finish from where i have stop. ministry, i want to go for the early morning services. but i cannot go. school, i felt so out of place in my class. today my class people are talking to our teacher on geog lesson. the topics they talk about, it makes me feel like leaving the class room. i cannot stand!!! i am not being over spiritual or anything. it is the thing with speech. i have been praying that i won't be influence by them, it is just that like i am immune to them. i will just be negative when they say something really very bad. like judging others by how they looks, insulting people. those are really what i cannot stand. school is great. it is my mission field. but whether i will be influence by them or the other way around. i am realy glad that i have a stronghold behind me, which is God. but the question is how long can i hold out. i hope to influence them with the word, but it seems like the other way round. i am troubled by what i am facing. maybe i should heed some advice from my leaders maybe during these few days. i believe i can solve this problem of mine. another thing, the films that nowadays that i showing. different leaders will tell you what to do or what not to do. if you believe they are right then you can follow them. if you believe they are wrong then do things in your own way. doesn't mean that you leaders are always right. it is just whether God has place this conviction in your heart on the things you are doing.. so do not think until you are stress over these things. hear what God is saying is the most important. Messages- i am very serious in whatever i am writing, because i know what i write may impact people or may let people learn the wrong things. i have been careful on what i have write and have been praying for them. I hope i will be able to share soon. Amen!

2008-03-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

Wednesday- back from BS just now. thinking and thinking what is the sharing to me. it is about sacrifice. i always know that obedience is so much better than sacrifices. but i also understand that we have to make some sacrifices. i did quite a number of sacrifices, but i don't really like to share about it, it is more than personal. but i enjoy what i get after sacrificing. anyways, i was given 4 words on good friday. i got a new title for my new message but i not sure to write what about it. i think and think but i don't know what to write. the four words are in chinese. hai hao hui fei. in english it is luckily can fly. but after today BS, i know what to share about it. i am now not only impacted but motivated to move forward to write more messages for God. Amen!

2008-03-25T23:41:00.003+08:00

Tuesday- went to the gym today with matty and xiao yun. real work out. not really very tired, because i got to sleep back then. i have alot of things to do. i manage to finish my 6 ideas for Dnt. quite fascinating. i am just thinking and thinking what i am going to do tml. i decided to take the initiative to do some things. i decided to visit the guys BS session tml afternoon. i am interested to know how things are going on and stuff like that. it is good to learn more. no matter how many related messages i have listen to before. most of them i have forgotten. i have been praying for a breakthrough on increasing my memory power. i used to give myself memory verses. i find out that my memory is very bad. if i can remember one or two is consider good for me. i am reading some of the geners blogs just now. not say i busybody, i just want to know what is the current living. i see that some of them enjoy themselves but some are struggling. i usually have no comments in such situation. because i was taught to MYOB. when i was reading, a guy from my zone post up the song 'Still'. i stayed on the blog and i enjoyed it. it impacted me. i got this few words. Being impacted is just one thing, but being motivated to do is another thing. people can share all kinds of messages but do we really move on, and continue saying that we are impacted. Keep moving forward got talk about this. i did a few modification. i believe this message is not about only hearing the word, the verses, the preaching. but whether it will do something to you life. for example prayer. people can pray and pray for hours. i did a diff. method in my prayer walk. i usually pray a short prayer, then i will spend rest of the time waiting to hear God. it is actually quite a simple logic. i like to keep things simple, it is like talking with people. do we talk and talk and doesn't allow our friends to response. of course we will pause and listen what is up next. i know some people don't agree with me. but i believe that diff. people got diff. perspective.

I learn quite a number of things these few months. alot of things happen and stuff like that. it makes me more adament in moving forward. and i will not look back to see what is behind me. even if i look back it will not affect me. i am more willing to take more steps to success. i have talk to my followups today. i will give them some BS to help them improve in the word. i will not share keep moving forward but maybe speech and ARK. i believe to share what is applicable to them, is good for them. and i believe i will get a chance to reach Zion one day. Amen!

2008-03-24T19:42:00.003+08:00

Monday- today in school i don't really enjoy it. i was feeling so terrible throughout the lesson. maybe because it is after P.E and recess. i felt tired and then hungry. today i didn't really talk much to my friends, all of us are tired. I am now in a better stage, i can open my eyes and sleep. my friend sitting beside me saw me jerk. then i became very very awake. she was asking me i wake up liao. she was so freak out. although i open my eyes i still got my 15 mins rest. after bio, the whole group of Dnt students went down to TKSS to view the DnT awards. it is good to observe other people's work. i really learn alot. after school went back home to enjoy myself for a cup of rootbeer. i was told that my sis went to buy a handphone without waiting for me!!! she pangsei me. i want to get a new phone!!! i think tonight i will continue my prayer checklist and pray for more people. yah i just remember, a friend of mine just got saved on easter sunday in another church. i am so happy for her. hope she will learn more from Jesus. Amen!

2008-03-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sunday- today quite interesting. it is easter sunday. i am feeling so enjoyable today. like nothing really hits me today. unlike my normal school days when sometimes i really cannot stand it. as usual, join the zone for lunch, go for 3rd service, eat lunch with cell. like nothing really changes. it is so like "usual". but today quite enjoyable. i went for dinner with some of our zone members at 85. we talk about the different view points of shepherd and sheep. now i really know what a shepherd really wants to know about their sheep. it is not i don't like to tell them, it is just that i don't know how to express it in words. i can talk better with guys like my close brothers all around me. i have never share what is really within me with jan and the other girls. maybe towards xiaoyun, because we are more than friends. we know each other family background and we understand our different styles. it is much more easier to talk to a person who know you well. rather than a person who is trying so hard to know you. today we went coffee showcase to lim tei. like we nothing to do like that. we started doing our homework and stuff. when the bill came i found out that my wallet only left 4 bucks and i bought an expensive drink. i was like what the.... i got a few friend who see i no money, want to help me pay. i was thinking and thinking, i recall that i sure have money in my bag. i was digging for cash in my bag, i found over a 100 bucks in it lah. i got no money in my wallet, but i got money in my bag. not every time like that one la. it just happen that i need to top up my bus card and pay for repairs and stuff like that. lol. tomorrow i will be back in school. i really must chiong for my subject and stuff like that. i believe i can make it to the college i want. Jesus is raise from the dead today. he lives again! Amen!

2008-03-20T19:50:00.002+08:00

Thursday- So many things happen this week. i am so surprise of the things happening this week. i got hurt exercising, my phone spoilt yesterday. i went down to a handphone shop to fix it, the person first say that my software got problem so he is going to reformat it. after an hour i got a phone call from the guy that say my CPU got problem. i was like what the.... i thought only the software spoil, CPU is spoil that is it siah. lousy phone. i have been thinking of changing it for a new phone. that won't get infected by virus and stuff. got to trade in my current one though. the price quite okay for my current one. got to go get a new phone that is not so virus prone. got to be wise on what i am going to do. tomorrow is good friday, on that day to some is a public holday to enjoy. but to me it is relatively different. Jesus died on that day, and live again three days after His death. I really feel that sadness within me though. although quite a number of things has happen to me this week. i know now whatever it is, it is to PRESS ON!!! Amen!

2008-03-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

Wednesday-i actually went down to school today. i found out that i actually can walk to school so i went to school. i also need to submit my proposal, it is like i must go or get ahck to death by my class. i must be abit crazy to play badminton although my ribs are hurting. but i found out that it doesn't really hurt anymore so never paste a big plaster to get it heal. yeeha i save money. heehee. feel like going to tampines on friday to da dian dong. long time never go and play the arcade. i also feel like going out with some friends. i don't really like the idea of going out, must spend money. all sorts of weird things happening to me, i think i hav entered to the wilderness, hope i can go past it though. For what always God is with me. Amen!

2008-03-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

Tuesday-not a really good school day. got a lot of influence from friends and stuff like that. got terrible pain from the exercise i did in gym. i mean i really feel that i am over doing what i can do. some people know why i am doing that. i am just trying to numb the pain of some things. i don't really want to mention this in the blog it is more than personal. i believe some who really know me well enough know what i have been going through in the past 10 years or so. i mean it have been more clear to me after the wilderness experience. hurt a muscle is more minor than what has been hurting me for the past 10 years. no matter what i do i hope God grace will be upon me so i can pull through it easily. Amen!

2008-03-17T21:16:00.003+08:00

Monday- yesterday quite happening. i actually talk things out with jan and xiao yun. we really laid everything out and stuff like that. interesting time and stuff like that is really like we are quarreling over stuff. nevermind use jan always say one, we are only discussing. trying t0 cheat ourselves. lol. today i didn't sleep in class at all, today i went out for BS, for gym, and for stadium. some friends really scare me. ryan is like as though he got a heart attack, scare me like what. xiaoyun not really very good with her strength though. i can only do 20 kg with my two hands, so sad. i thought i can do better than that. strength is one thing that God place in us. like playing tug-o-war. you must have the strength to win your opponent. but having the G.S.M(Giant Slaying Mentality) is different. David being non-comparable to Goliath but won him in the battle. actually there is different strategies to the different sports we do even in our studies. there are different strategies in how to study too. i am a badminton player quite some time ago, i must have the foundation as my tree branch and strategies as my leaves to win. it really works on almost all things. I am inspired yesterday by being led to the book of Philemon but my spirit was shock because someone call me. i felt like hitting the person. I NEVER GET MY VERSE!!! i read the whole book trying to sense the verse, but when the thing was lost it will be pass on to the next person. too bad i lost it. but i know someone else will benefit from it so it is okay. my next turn will come. I believe. Amen! =)

2008-03-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

Saturday- today is my big day. i think today ended so fast lah. so exciting but ended so fast. today have cell at ECP. quite exciting with lizards and insect around us. after the sharing, we are suppose to go one round to share, a lizard climb down to my leg there, i don't what is it at first, so i freak out. after i knew what is that, i decided to chase it away. the other girls freak out like mad, scream and jump up the seats. such a funny scene, should have taped it down. come on la, it is just a lizard, and you are bigger than it. really nothing to be scared off. unless it is a crocodile maybe i will get scared. we had a fun cell group today. it is more than a norm. i find out that i am quite strong by eating eggs. maybe will eat 3 per week, to increase strength without playing badminton. my source of strength right now. Amen!

2008-03-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Thursday- i got nothing to do at home the whole day. not using the computer because no internet, watch tv. i found out that i long time never watch tv, so sat down and watch a few VCDs. during evening time, decided to go out with xiao yun to get a crumpler bag for myself. i wanted it long time ago, but this time is different i got a discount card with me. got a nice limited edition bag. kena a few nagging when i get home, because i got an expensive bag. but in the end settle down to explore my new bag. ah hah. i don't know how to adjust the strap of the bag. fuuny leh, got a new bag but don't know how to strap it. but i found out the method, i just put all the excessive ones in the bag design itself. i hereby want to congratulate my friend Yun He being able to go for is baptism. really feel very happy for him. i hope to see more of my friends getting baptised. Amen!

2008-03-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Monday- i really felt that my computer is really very boring. today i got the motivational workshop by HIGH ACHIEVERS. i think the company is very cool. the topics that i learn today, it is super spiritual lah. like they talk about the spirit of excellence. THIS IS WHAT I LEARN IN CHURCH. they talk about Vision. i am deeply inspired by this. they even tell us to write our vision for the class down. it reminds my of cell group. the coach said that he read from a book, that say " without vision, man perished" come on lah. that is what it is written on the bible. it is just that they cannot say that out. it is really a good motivational workshop.

2008-03-09T21:27:00.003+08:00

i went for 1st today. I wanted to go for 1st for a long time. but i didn't manage to do it. yay i finally can go 1st after some time. yah, i went there because i was on duty. today is quite tiring, almost slept in the class. got the mashimaro eyes. lol. went to lunch with my cell, played arm wrestling with tingxin, i always thought she is stronger than me because she is a constant canoeist in school, while i played badminton, once in a few months. i won her on my right hand. we played the left hand, because her hand fell from the table. my tendon was stretch, ouch! it is very painful, until now when i am typing, i am still not recover yet. i mean it is easy to see whether i hurt my tendon anot. my left hand keep shaking after that. i don't have shaky hand. the one time my hand shaking is really bad is after i did a constant duty for the crazy love event. i was in a super cold auditorium for a full five hours. maybe it was cold and i only move two fingers from my right hand. it became figid. scare me. i thought i could never recover from it. after a few hours of trembling it stop. but it was an interesting experience. when people at each of our side, are guessing who will win the wrestle. ah hah, johnny was right, i won. haha. maybe it is the textbooks, i brought home due to the last day of school. yahoo! holiday liao. thinking of how should i spend it with my two days holiday. i think one day i use it for doing modelling for DnT. my priority. and do my maths next sunday with some people teaching me. friday is a special day. i will also do something special. i have been thinking but not sure what i am going to do. maybe pay a visit to my old class gathering then go for cell dinner. after maybe stay over at my friend's place. i am not sure about that. but i know i must be ready in my spirit. will be praying some more. Amen!

2008-03-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

wednesday. i off my computer awhile just now, becuase i am feeling to bored with it. went to room, call some people never pick up. roll on my bed a few times, stop by reading a few archie comics. it is really very boring. tomorrow is yunhe birthday. From here i want to wish him a happy birthday. he is 16 after a few minutes. i still got 8 months left before i reach 16. sad arh. today is consider a boring day. with that i conclude this post.

2008-03-04T20:00:00.003+08:00

tuesday 04032008. It seem like i really got nothing to do. i can spend alot of time hugging the computer. yesterday i did being away from it and did some revision for my bio test. Ohmygoodness i lost 5 marks for labelling the parts on the function. when i am suppose to write them down. grrrr. i never read the thing properly. so sad. i lost the chance in getting my A1. bahxxxx. i just have to try harder the next time. i mean i got my unique way of studying. on the outside i may seem to be free and have the happy go easy attitude. but when i study, in split second i will be a super serious person. it applies when i am doing duty. don't ever joke with me when i am doing things seriously, i may just ignore you. yunhe was kinda freak out when he see my black face when i am studying and he disturb me. lolx. do i really look that fierce? hahas. maybe he can answer that to me later. maybe nxt time i try not to study in front of you all. as i can see, i am always doing duties in secluded locations. aiya, i know i am not that friendly lah. Will try to change that. Chill!!!

2008-03-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

Today is a monday. Today i am getting more and more grouchy. i actually got angry with some juniors, my class people , and some of my teachers. I guess this is just another monday thing. every monday i will feel very very down, don't know for what reason. aiya, sure is SOTD. i don't really want to make these words so obvious. i am pretty tired today. so i didn't finish the chineses homework i am suppose to do, of course kena scolded by the teacher. i understand why she is so worked up with some things, but i did the homework by the end of the day. today i have bio, tml i got the bio test. i want to study well for bio. i spend about half an hour with my friends to really study. spend about 2hrs playing boring poker. but i manage to get the concepts right at the end of the day with the help of my friends. chill chill, need to take a chill pill everyday. or else very soon enough i will get myself into trouble again.

2008-02-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

I just came back from cell dinner. One more week till term break. this term have been exciting, there is alot of things happening around. for school i have been getting ups and downs though. for spiritually i think i have really grown alot from the weird person i am into a far more weirder person. I mean i really change alot in 2008. It is really a changing year. I need to chiong my journal, chiong my homework, chiong for my ministries, and far more important chiong for God.

2008-02-25T22:53:00.003+08:00

The weeks have pass quickly. So many things have pass, Events have given me a busy lifestyle. Like Crazy Love, Zone 2 service, normal cell group, exciting services. I have been inviting people throughout the month. I am feeling quite tired from all these. I have also went for classes too. Give me a second. Give me a break... Am I even spare with one second for myself to have a break. i may have more free time. But a break is another thing. I will go overseas after my Os. I want to go bungee jumping, I want to complete the modification of my new desktop (provided I have the $$$ to do so), get a new trialthon bike ( I hope I can fufil my wish to cycle around Singapore with a few girls, provided my knees don't hurt.). I don't really want to get a DSLR for the time being. I mean not worth it. Don't really have that deep desire.

I got so much things to do upon that. My church, my family, my cell, my zone, my friends and my teachers have so much things for me to do. My church, duties once in every 3 weeks. When event comes, I can do duty straight for 3 days. My cell, I want to bring more people! My zone, making use of my skills in contributing to it. (For e.g doing sound). My friends, wants me to accompany on the weekends because of celebrations. (But it clashes with cell groups and services, I am sorry about that though.). My teachers, "Avis you could've done better than this." I was like, I have already done my best. Expections here and there. I was hiding all my talents all this while, keeping a low low profile as well as I could. I know if people knew about it. They will want me to do alot of things. So whatever that is, keeping a low profile will actually benefit you, and being humble at the same time.

I guess I really learn alot from 14 to 16. God is my main focus, all I want the basic is to just fufil God's expectations in me. I feel stress but never felt tremendous stress. I hope that i do not have to experience that.

2008-02-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

how do i want to start this post with. actually i don't really understand why bonds is broken so easily because we never see each other frequently and stuf like. i think i must really keep moving forward. that really must apply to me. collected the cell tees today went around from bedok to paya lebar. from paya lebar back to bedok. moving with joy but end up with sianzness.

2008-02-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

I am growing older and older. I still remember the first day I went for church. It have been a long way that I have gone through. During this period, I learn alot of things. I learn to be strong spiritually, in school and even at home. I always said that it need time for us to know each other welll. Time, time, time, time. Does we really have that kind of time. Or I can just peacefully wait for another change that will seperate us. I am sick of tired in wasting my life off for something dumb. I will wait no more. I will care no more. I will just let it be. So what I am the only person standing up for Jesus. I am running out of patience, time and my life.

I never felt such stress within me. I don't like stress. Please don't talk to me like you know me very well. You don't really know me at all. I will get angry sometimes, but usually I will just let it be. From now on, my studies is more important. I will focus on it till I graduated from the school. I felt bored. But how can I tell you. I can sit down there doing nothing until I was told to move on. The only person I can turn to is God. Siting down there doing nothing, praying to God. I guess now this is one of the only thing I can do. I thank God for being with me. Hello friends don't think i am emoing when i was sitting down there alone and you don't dare to approach me. I am not emoing ok. It is just that i want to recount some stuff that I have miss. (old post)

2008-02-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

I finally wake up my idea today. I know I myself i got alot of problems, and i have faults on myself. I admit that I am not perfect yet. But now I felt that I must wake up my idea that I always believe that there is no problems around me. Maybe I notice these problems, but I choose to ignore what I see. Maybe I am really comfort with my own zone, I never wanted to step out. But sometimes when I must step out to other places. I will soon make that place into another new comfort zone. I never want to care about these things around me, because I believe one day someone else will solve this. But I found out today that sometimes I must be the person who really step out to do something.

Why must it be so difficult? I don't mind being the person at the back doing things. I don't want to compete, why must people try all ways to compete with me. I tell them so many times I don't want to do it. But in the end it became my problem. Why must human be so complacent? Maybe we are all once deep in sin. I ask God today, if my methods of living is wrong, change me once again. But I felt in my spirit that I must be independent this time. I am not being negative, but i found out that I shouldn't wait for others to solve the problems, but I must also try to solve all these myself. Suddenly, I felt pressure that I never had before. God relieve me.I guess everyone learn something new everyday. I am also progressing while this is actually teaching me something.

I wake up from my idea after a talk with some friend. This friend is right, we have to settle what is in front of us. I shouldn't be complacent anymore, I should do what is ahead for me. I really learn something today. I guess I am really growing everyday. Whatever it is, I hope people can support me with the right things I do. I hope that someone will be behind me. I must have a good night sleep before i proceed on to tomorrow's service.

2008-02-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

Today is New Years Eve, I have just finish my reunion dinner. Slacking with my computer again. Although is family get together time., but like never interact like that. Nevermind after tomorrows one and only house visiting. I am done liao. Wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year.

Just to add on to this post. This year New Year like so boring. The atmosphere quite dead. Like no New Year mood. To me it is just a public holiday. Like nothing much leh. Nothing to continue. (Status: still slacking with my computer.)

2008-02-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

I just finish school just now. Kind of settle myself down. Monday had just gone by just like that. I found out that 24hrs is not enough for Singaporeans. We should change it to 36hrs instead. Then i will have more time to evangelise, not like now. Stuck because of no time.

I think I really learn something new everyday. Why every Monday must be so boring. I literally open my eyes and sleep on the chinese period. funny right. I also don't know what to continue. so that is it.

2008-02-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

Just settle myself down. Came back from service, don't really feel very tired. So I decided to stay up late a little. Tomorrow it is school again. We always say that we don't want to live our lives like routines. But we are actually living like that. Our morning and afternoon lives are like governed by the changing of bells. Quite dumb right. Only on the weekends we are free from it. Today I stone for almost an hour, waiting for my cell members to go for lunch/dinner. Why I always stone? I think because I got really nothing to do. But nowadays I prefer my stoning session, I can figure out more things than usual. For e.g new messages I want to share. Stoning also can get me away from sinning. Cool right!!!

I found out in life, we not only spend more time on sleeping but we also spend alot of time in waiting. But during this time of waiting, we can actually do more practical things to the society, than wasting our life away. I guess this applies to all of us. I have decided maybe the next time, i will not wait anymore. I know some of us, the anger level will rise up during the waiting moment. I mean why must we make ourselves angry during this wait. We can choose to walk off just like that. But I think the party friend involved will feel sad. (it is just a suggestion, so if you are my friends and you read this post, don't feel negative.)

This week is a good week for me. Although a bit rough, but i thank God for what He has done for me this week. I think thanksgiving is very important. I hope the next week will be better, since it is Chinese New Year. Can get ang bao. Haha. By the way, I have got to stop writing. Continue next month. Good Night to my post readers.

2008-01-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

today is a tuesday. january is going to be over in a few days time. this month alot of things happen. due to the devastating latest post that i got. I LOST MY HANDPHONE in the year 2007. i bought a new phone recently, the SE P1i. spent quite a sum on it. it is a good phone, it works like a computer. when i used my phone in class, they think i am trying to show off. the first idea i had in mind is "what the...". i can tell them i am not showing off at all. i just want to use my money to afford better things if you cannot buy it you don't have to be jealous of other people.

today is quite an interesting day , got two free period at the end of the day. I was stoning the whole 2 periods. the guys in my class are playing psp. why i had nothing to do, i was actually thinking what i should write for my next message. all the messages that i write is either you live or you die. for example the good messages i have write is the 7 ways of how to die, a brief one is on www.gentwo-trees.blogspot.com and the Ticket To Heaven which is ver special too. i started thinking and thinking, i thought of writing "Kindness" and "Keep Moving Forward". i remember writing a blog entry about a movie meet the Robinsons. i think i should write more evangelistic messages since i am still in school.

during the free periods, the maths group suddenly gather together at one person table. oh my goodness, they are actually using their psp to view pornographic video. they are even discussing about it. i was sitting down there hearing their comments. i felt disgusted. how can they be so enthusiastic about this KIND of video. they are there laughing and talking about it. i was thinking what is happening nowadays. i am feeling so out of place when they are talking about it. i continue stoning when they are watching. i don't know how much longer will i be able to maintain this strong stand in my class. i am really scared that i will fall one day. i hope they can stop pulling me. May God enlighten their ways amen.

school really is like a tiring day for me. i am like quite tired everyday. O levels this year i must chiong liao.

2008-01-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

New year of 2008, in 2007 alot of things happen. But all of this have come to past. To me nothing is more important then getting a good grade to determine my future. Why must life be like this? Why must I be determine by a grade? Well, I know, because I am a Singaporean. Singapore move in a very fast pace, sometimes I just cannot catch up, I just want to catch my breath. I want to run faster. Now I don't know how to end so...

2007-12-19T11:54:00.000+08:00

AUDACIOUS

I just came back from youth camp yesterday. i like the camp alot. like my camp group members, my cell group, and most of it generations. in this camp i experience alot of encounter with God. i didn't get a fresh anointing but i help people get a fresh anointing from God. speaking truthfully, i don't really have alot of great experience with God. I never got slain before, but nearly fall down when the leaders are praying for me. i prayed for Kevin at the altar. he was deep in the spirit and i gave a spiritual talk with him ( i think that is what i am good at). after talking i prayed for him again and again for salvation for his family, revival in Canada. he knelt down and cried. at that point of time, i was very touch in the spirit. i just wanted him to know there is no such thing called impossible for God.

we went to bukit timah for a "walk" in one of the camp mornings. i thought we are just going to find one person but i didn't knew that there is a million of things for us to do after that. walk around the bukit timah makes me feel very tired. somemore their slopes are 45 degrees vertical. oh my gosh if you fall off you will literally roll down. but my group Bear Bear manage to win the catchment queen. we are all very very suprise. my group is a slacker group, and i pay the money is for the sessions. the sessions are great. it is holiday and i got nothing to do. now i am using NLB comp, wasting my time in order to meet xiao yun later at one. i am still trying to adapt a slacker life.

2007-12-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

i lost my phone on saturday. wah super sad. the best phone i have ever had. i lost it at ang mokio hub toilet. within a few minutes i ran back to find whether my phone is still there. arghh!!! missing. my friends tell me to face the fact that it is lost. oh man, who would like to face the facts at that point of time. almost erupted. i know that my other friends they have already experience losing their phones before. why am i so careless. i like that phone very much. it is my independent device. now that i lost it, i felt so terrible. unable to focus with the things i do. sad... where have the honest people in singapore went to? i just can't stand people being dishonest. i was also careless on my part. it really hurts me everytime i want to listen to music it reminds me that i no lonegr have this things. even if i get a new phone, it wouldn't be the same with the games that i have completed, the songs that i have search day and night. my family members blame me for losing my things. i just felt like telling them that it is my thing that i have lost it. i am the one who has worried about it and call almost a 4 dozen times in hope that the person who have took my phone pick up my phone call and return the phone to me. this is one of the setbacks i face that impacted me greatly. i didn't confront them bcause i know that it was all my fault that i have lost it. people might think i am just childish to think that it is an impact. hey friend you may have lose a phone before and you think it is nothing but i can tell you to me it is something because i have waited for 3 years for a new phone which can fufil my needs. will you guys ever understand. sometimes i felt that it is not you who lose something you will just think that the person looking for it is nuts, but if you experience the lost before you will be comforting helping them to find it.

2007-11-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

haiz. today my cell celebrated my birthday. i dun really have the happy feeling. maybe it is because i change cell today. do anything oso nt in the mood. i play a terrible game on ghost squad today. intial D oso. maybe i m not used to it. some of the ppl in my zone tell me we will restructure in 6 mths like that. i may be able to get used to it. i m serious in the things i do. although i prefer my old cell. but i think the changes are for the growth for my future spiritual life. i dun really want to dwell in the past. but there are fun times that we have gone through. i will rmb it. i hope the next time we will be together again. this is the time to use my favourite quote KEEP MOVING FORWARD. this will be a time for me to grow in all ways. my cell leader ask me whether i want to change a while. i think i will not want to do that. no point staying put and leave in no time. might as well face what is the things God have plan ahead for me. Amen!

2007-10-17T20:50:00.000+08:00

dun really hw to express myself now. i gt back a few papers. nt really dissapointed. bt sumthing that my teacher tell us today it is wat it really strikes. she said " izzit this is wat u wanted in the future..." wat can i really say to this. i nvr think of what i wanted in the future. i still rmb last time cell group we got a topic. if u have only a week left to live. i ans really dumb. but now i noe wat i want to do. i want to travel to 3rd world countries and my last stop is israel to mt zion. i make it as a goal in my life to at least reach mt zion. i see a few of my cell members who is reaching out to their sheep. i try to reach out, but i believe one day it will be different. i may even shepherd them.

hearing the rest of my cell members who haven get baptised is going to go for baptism on the nov or dec. i really in my heart congrats to them. nw that they r going for it, the whole cell will only left me without getting baptised. it dun really matters me. i mark 4 yrs to make myself stronger in GOD. ppl might think i m like a kid. bt i want to wait. i dun mind waiting as JESUS himself get baptised around three yrs. i m waiting to get to 18 though. maybe i will get more mature. maybe i get anointed and get baptised nxt years. GOD will know though.

2007-10-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

marking the 6th times i watch SECRET. practically memorise the whole thing. 1) at movies 2) at comp online 3) at matty's hse 4) at jasper's hse 5) on my psp 6) at xinzz's hse. yest or today maybe we had a sleepover at xinzz hse. have steamboat though nt really sleep over as i did nt really sleep at all. came home to pack my books, tired n K.O till 6 o'clock. i woke up at 4 actually, but when i heard the movie SECRET is playing i decided to continue sleeping. i want to go out actually but too tired. some of my frenz practically no need sleep. some reply me at 4 a.m. i guess. gonna go crazy, give me a hand. jiu wo again.

i got no problems nwadays. maybe a decent job is wat i need to spend my holidays. starting very enthu, but the date i m going overseas does not really allow me to work at all. No I.C, busy at church. i guess i have to say good bye to my O2. all i will just see first.

2007-09-28T11:39:00.001+08:00

jiu wo!!! this week i m super super busy. monday pst pat leader's meeting, went there to do duty. wah liao so tiring. i nearly broke my leg on monday. i am looking forward to the gathering on tues to celebrate wanxing's bdae. it is like super fun lah they play sumthing like the erm erm chuckie chuckie. i stay out of the game bcoz when i see them play until i oso giddy. we play sparkles n they were so happy. when the sparkles are finish they even try to make a small campfire to satisfy themselve, we are actually quite a crazy bunch. who says christianity is boring, we all actually prove that it is fun during it. i break my record evry time. I HAVE WATCH SECRET FOR 4 TIMES. first i watch it at the movies, 2nd at crunchy rolls, 3rd at matty's hse. 4th at jasper's hse. i can actuallymemorise the whole thing. it get faster and faster every time i watch it.

in my way of life i knew that i m not actully perfect enough. i improve on my crude language. NO SPEAKING OF VULGARITIES. i improve on my attitude, a.k.a now a bo chap attitude. nth really matters now. i jus want to finish my studies and my life in order to see the lord in heaven. i repent against my sins almost everyday. in order to perfcet my life no matter even nth wrong i have done.

Quote of the day: follow the one who is known as the way, the truth and the life. through your life on Earth will be different and gain when u leave at the end of the day.

2007-09-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

i played an interesting game today. it is called the kings call. i nvr knew a game would be related to christ. it is quite true that we r on a journey on following Jesus our lord and saviour. it is like a quest, with a dragon like biig sin to keep us away from Him. i hope some of u can play tis game, u may find enlightment in urself and follow Gos on a stronger heart though. http://www.kingscall.org

this week hols pass by like moving wind, nth really happen. sad that nth interesting really happen. look upon to nxt hols though. another thing i just can'tdecide whether to go thailand or stay to watch luo zhi xiang concert or celebrate my birthday with my frenz. maybe i can celebrate it earlier with them, but the concert only has one day. i really dun noe wat to do...

2007-08-16T20:15:00.001+08:00

grr... today so angry. want to crush a person with my hands. somebody stole my bio book. thinking of it makes me really angry. the bio book is very expensive, got to dig out my allowance to buy it. i search the whole class for the book but to no avail. i think the person who took my book brought it home. it is just within a few days, i was just browsing it on monday then it went missing on thursday, makes no sense wat. i really want to break the hands of the person who stole it. THERE IS NO INTEGRITY WITH PPL NOWADAYS. another thing i m unhappy is that with some ppl. why humans r like tat, i m the one who lost the book not you. you will nvr noe how i feel. you r not the one who search every table and every corner of the class to find it. all you noe is to scold me for losing it, do u noe i m already very unhappy bcoz someone stole it from me and there you are stepping on my scar by reprimanding. it is not whether the money to buy a new book, izzit worth it for me to buy a new one, when you r using it to teach me a lesson for losing it. what is the point. i gotta find my old book, no matter to search every class every table for it. i will not give up. gotta break the person arms if i noe who steal it. gotta strike on nxt wk to find my book on the alternate mon n thurs. spoil my spiritual life siah, when i think about the scolding i really lose faith in god. wat can i do more to gain more faith in you. it is as though i m losing it everyday. juz now i think, what r u really doing? can u help me? i wait on you for about a year? r u really listening to me? even now i still feel uncomfortable, i really hope god can help me find the book by leading me to the person who took it. if god really do that, i will have more faith and i promise not to hold grudges on that person, i will forgive.

today i no need to go for pc leader. quite happy. no need to see all those spoilt juniors. today topic is about sexual education. oh man, why do MOE want to do such a topic. today a video is shown in the class. when the video is being played, the guys in the class started criticising the woman who was acting. saying that she is not pretty etc. they judge the person in every way. after the video they started using vulgar language to say about the term Sex. they started giving vulgar names for the diseases. they even start laughing when those ppl talk about the disease they r having and discourage us from it. the immature thinking of them really makes me irritating. i felt like cutting my ears off upon hearing those things they are saying. urghh... can't they have at least some discernment when they are speaking. one more thing, today mr tan said about the aides mosquitoes that have been going around. when he said the word i thought he was calling me, the whole class started laughing. i felt funny though. the only thing that please me is my geog common test results. i get 14/15 A1. shiok man. to be frank i studied on the day of the test. maybe i dun deserve this grade like others who studied the day before. maybe is the common knowledge that i got. today is just not my day, so suai. i muz think of ways to make myself calm down or else i will find something to vent my anger on. i really hope that i can find my book... pls return it to me no matter who is it.

2007-08-15T20:27:00.001+08:00

wao really quite some time nvr blog liao. being more rebellious day by day. so sianz with teachers around me. going to holiday liao. wat de... hanging around in a class speaking vulgaraties evryday. i ask god how can i keep the purity with my language with the infleunce of people eveyday. thank god for shutting my ears sumtimes or else i will be like them getting worse. i felt very hard to contain myself within this language. in the past i oso speak like tat evryday. after the first day i go for cell i stop myself from this language. after 1 year pass, i really stop. now i m really very sensitive within this. i really want to make myself deaf by hearing them. wat can i really do. i pray for revival. but when i see my class i rather have unity instead of revival first.

had quite alot of fun becoz of the nation's b'dae. quite a number of days. enjoy my holiday. on wed i spent the whole day with my classmates for the first time. we went to kbox have fun play the arcade basketball. i nvr knew my arcade basketball skills are quite good. i thought i m only good at ghost squad other than tat really arh.... i send out quite a few challenges to ppl vs me for ghost squad. evryone back out when they see me play round one. when they see me play, they are so stunned. some even tell me to sign on for NS since my shooting is good. i tell them i am just shooting a screen if face the real one sure lose one. i want to tell all those guys in my class not to insult me. i just hope a word that they say bad about me, their mouth will get ulcers . Quite evil right. In the word jesus said love everyone even your enemies. sumtimes i want to love them but seeing them in their hypocritical face makes me feels like puking. i will try to do it as god says so.

God loves everyone in his kingdom. i want to have that passion. Good nitezzz to the Lord in Heaven. God Bless. Amen!!!

2007-07-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

finally got time. this few weeks i m like super busy, every week oso got things to do. last week is nine feet under. i get the utmost rejection in the last few weeks to invite them to nine feet under. for sum kind of reason, i almost get use to it. for wat i m sad is, when i keep 2/4 in prayer, i sense no revival within that class. i sense it in my upper level secondary. nvm lah, wat is past let it pass. i can juz say i learn sumthing everyday. today get insult from a classmates. no wonder whenever i m with them n when my other frenz call me i will juz have the habit of saying i m with a school frenz. i learn today that i have no means to get angry at all. if i m angry sum ppl will juzz laugh. so therefore after today i learn that not to get angry. it will juz left them cold. heehee.

last week i m super tired, chiong rehearsal for nine feet under. wed, fri, sat. i do the sound 11 hrs worth. not only sit down there. set up. the NFU last min at altar call want mics. it is like the edge of the world. nvm lah. over liao. gtg stop writing.

2007-07-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

this week is terrible. sianz, boring, temper. all my classmates r getting more grouchy. grrr. today went to sch. same old timetable. same old teachers. same old scolding. adding sat n sun n this stupid week will be complete. haiz... dunno wat is happening to my life. the nearing of ninefeetunder, is like raining misfortune everyday. so suaizzz. do everything oso wrong. ppl reject u nt cuming. nvm juz left 2 days n this dreadful week has completed. today i went to TM for BS. the message not bad. jan can share very good. not so surface but quite deep. this time i dun take a longtime to understand. gtg end this. zzzz.

2007-06-28T19:35:00.000+08:00

sch reopen liao... this semester is the time to study even. quite some time i neglected this blog. i was so busy this few mths. or i can juz say i am plain lazy. my problem before my holidays is the HW i need to pass up. but now it seems like i m finishing all my homework step by step. tml is be yourself day. i really want to wear sumthing nice since this is the first time i see my sch do it. i wanted to wear jeans but i guess it is quite hot for summer days. i dun like the new timetable. nw wednesday is the day i dun like most now. last time is thurs. wed is juz plain torture for me to have all 5 periods straight for DNT. i like DNT though but i feel very sianz of having all together in one day. got new teacher, quite cute but i dun like new teachers. haiz.... now our class got one more new form teacher. but she teach our class until super black face. may God bless her teaching our class.

the holidays are quite great though. but the first week is super sianz, the sianzness reduce as days went by, done a lot of things, help others, do alot of swimming. i think i muz apply the quote to myself "keep moving forward". i look forward to alot of things. like the revival in my sch. the launching of ninefeetunder and IREACH. i think i can really see a lot of ppl coming in. really happy. today went to do PC leaders at 1/5. super wat lah. the sec 1 really no hope. they so disrespectful lah. moreover we r their seniors. but they r super childish. with one look i noe wat they r up to. they muz have more wisdom to cheat us. haha. i give them easy qns but none of them can score, sianz arh. nvm maybe blog nxt week again. nxt monday youth day. yoyoyo!!!

yoyoyo

2007-06-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

wao long time nvr blog. juz nw went for swimming, nw i m beat. so much things happen nwadays. this week i have been going to VBS. spending almost the whole day outside almost everyday of the week. study at night though. i m fufiling my wishlist. so happy...

2007-05-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

this few weeks quite tired to blog. this week quite shiok, went on a cruise trip with my mum. i went to places like phuket and langkawi(malaysia). i visited quite a few places of interest, but unfortunataly all nid $$$. this few days quite tight on my wallet. no money to fufil my wishlist. i guess i need some time to keep with pringles bottle full. this few days has been sticking on the comp watching wei xiao pasta. quite a nice show. seriously i have been jumping from episodes to episodes. so watch quite fast nw i m watching the last episode liao.

toking bout my cruise trip. i can say sometimes is quite boring and sum r quite fun. maybe on the nxt post i will put all the pics up. i think in phuket more fun. langkawi quite boring bcoz they bring us to places like museum, so quite sianz. i think my mum has cost a big hole in her bank by bringing me on this cruise trip. i think she spend about 1.5k over there. my mum plays jackpot almost every night on board. i wanted to stop her but thinking that it is her money that she is spending so i didnt bother much. the things on board are very expensive. thinking that a canned in NTUC only cost about $0.50, but on board they can sell it at $3, quite atrocious on hw they raise up the price.

i juz came bac from cell. abit tired n feel quite giddy on my head. i find that my cell nwadays r nt so like it was once before. the time we get together became so little. maybe about o levels. maybe after their Os, we will have more time together. it will be my turn nxt year. i guess i will be like that too. but today quite sad. a cell gathering about 20 ppl, turn out that about 3 of us went to dinner. me, matty, n JK. i thought of going for the meeting tonight but i m quite tired for another message. then we slack around at TM until nine. we met junwei n kim siong when we went to play the arcade. quite fun hanging out with them. we ate at yakun for our final snack n went hme. although today nt very fun. but i guess they will be days that we can be bac to our old self. n nt get stress bout exam anymore. but i still wish those who r taking exams on monday goodluck, jia you, gambatei.

exam exam exam

2007-05-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

almost finish exam liao. can sense a bit of liberty near by. juz want to relax after exam. e.g. playing o2jam, go to gym n excercise.got to enjoy myself. after exams i can sense my working days coming. tired to do anymore things. tml is the last stupid paper. why is it a stupid paper, let me tell u tml is listening compre. it juz take me 30 mins n i go hme. all i nid to do is nw stay at hme and clean my ears. so sianz lah. but cheer for the finishing exam.

2007-05-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

a bit tired. this week is exam week. study study study. i went out to study every night. few papers are quite hard. tough editing those photos. completely no time for this blog. haiz so sad n tired. cannot go malaysia. argh!!! no mood liao. i will be miss black face until my frenz malaysia trip is over. so sad i pangsei my frenz. nw i have to spend $$$ to treat them. so sianz lah. without me they nid to find another roommate. i m so unhappy. even until i get my grades i will be still so sad. i find tat me family members dun seem to trust me. but i noe that, bcoz i oso dun trust them at all. what they promise me sumtimes they wun even do it. maybe they can say i do nth to deserve their trust, but it is okay i really did nth. but one day, i will tell all those who look down on me, to say sry to me. today gt cell quite tired. better have an early night bcoz i want to go early.

Miss clarity Cafe

2007-05-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

on tues i thought that i will spend my afternoon lonely. luckily i have frenz around me. they ask me out to queensway to see shoes with them. me, jasper, xy wan xing n joo keng went there, at evening it left me, Xy, jookeng n wanxing. we have a fun dinner together. this is one of the most enjoyable time of this week.

Menu!!!(Cute)

candlelight dinner(romantic)

BP Crispy Chicken(tasty)

Dessert of the day(Chocolate Fondue)

Marshmallow half dipped(yummy!!!)

had a fun day that day. but reach home get scolded bcoz i reach hme too late n tml is sch. Sad!!!

2007-05-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

today is labour day. i found today is a only good day that i can spend a night peacefully. i find out that in this few mths i everyday nid to wake up early . today spiderman 3 is out. price quite ex tough maybe wait for exam over.yest went to airport, everyone is wild afer studying. we take weird pics. n there is an emokid around us though. but jan dun want to take pic.

a ghost in the house yo!!!

toking about ghost pics!!!

group pic!(XY, Kevin, Kah Wai, Matty)

Ruffles Gang!

Emo Kid!!!

Group pic with me inside.

it is very enjoyable yest. juz feel that i can do wild things. i really like to gather as a cell and have fun. Gen 2.3 really rox. having frenz juz make me feel great. i really like yest. good day. still gt rest of the day to do nth maybe later go to queensway to see shoes with XY. nid to get around to spend my days.

2007-04-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

tired arh. maybe this blog will be my weekly blog. nwadays cannot blog like everyday, busy arh. yesterday spend money on ear phones. things nwadays very ex. this week is nt a very good week for me. there are arguments this week with frenz n family. sad though very easy get angry, very hard to control my feelings. there is zone meeting today, after that went to simpang bedok to have lunch. went to TM shopping with cell members. we went to the arcade to play sum non-violent games. it is sumtimes very good to spend a day with them. i m a very free person but they are very busy. get together times is sumtimes very hard.

jan is going to NTU. she will be studying in Boon Lay. so far can. still want me to visit her. haiz. i dun think i will go visit her lah. quite far leh. she is going in aug. that's mean the girls in our cell will have lesser chances in getting together. long time no bible study. the latest one is wif johnny about 'Evangelism Explosion'. the times i had bible study with jan, i can count with two hands. haiz.

it is time for me t be independent summore. dun bother my shepherd liao. to be frank, if i have problems in life i will share to XY. she is a good listener but cannot advise me much. if i got problems i will ask johnny to advise me in what i shld do. he is a good listener n will use my problems n advise me spiritually. he is going for NS liao. no one tok to me liao. sad arghhh...

my sch hit the news on fri. toking about a few students playing in the canal. super embarassing for our sch. the principal was so angry that she keep us bac to tok about it. even though we have exams later. those kids were only sec 1 & 2. they kena beaten up by seniors. the seniors are not happy bcoz they make them lose face when they get into these kind of problems when only lower sec. they are very stupid as they commit the same thing the principal share with us. sum more is the afternoon, the same day, morning that she shared wif us water dangers.

yesterday gt mid-year, english, i write the compo until so emo like it really happen. i write the qns about 'home'. after the exam, i share wif my frenz what qns i write, but they say mine is very hard sure get very low marks. very discouraging leh. but i believe i can get good grades as i know this time i write very different from my usual style.there will be more exams next weeks. more stress getting ahead. STRESS ARGHH!!!

2007-04-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

wow almost the whole week nvr blog. this few days quite busy n tired. this week is the chiong study week. nvr study for hrs in years so find a bit tiring. study study study. i dun want to retake o lvl. sec 3 is a year to like noe the subjects well. i find out that this few days i m practising maths. my maths have shown great improvement. i think nxt i will brush my physics n bio, then follow by my humanities, then language, n lastly technical. my dnt i m doing quite well . so far no need to worry. tired arh.now the time is 10.33 am. nt going to join cell for lunch, ltr go straight to service. juz want to do sumthing enjoyable today.

pastzzz

2007-04-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

i went for cell today as usual. today attendance not bad. after cell i went to ikea with my cell friends. the food there quite nice. quite full after eating dinner there. we walk around and go to GIANT supermarket. when i reach eunos MRT i did not straight away go home. slack around with my cell friends and talking about the church camp. my friend wanted to go. at that time i tell her to ask for her parents consent. i pray for her outside the MRT hope it will help in the chances of her mother letting her go to the church camp. for myself i don't think i am going. i found out that going to camp makes me feel lonely without really anyone accompany me.

now i am really mad with my cousin for taking my pictures. i do not like to take pictures of myself. although my cousin is in the wrong of taking my pictures but he still think he is right. hate this kind of people, see also makes me feel angry. later i sue you for privacy terms then you know. thinking about last time in primary 4. i am always bullied by people in my class. they don't like me at all. but i don't really care about them. i decided not to get bullied anymore, but my marks was really lousy so i drop to a lousier class. but until now i never regretted in going into my class because of poor marks. i am really very happy in my class, with all those different classmates. until now, i still think my primary 5 & 6 class is the best. altough in the class a classmate always tries to trick me but i know she is tricking me but i still let her make fun of me. i like friend around me. and the most respected teacher i ever got in the class.

although now i have alot of friends around me. but i still regretted about how i treat some of my most important in my primary class. sometimes when i think about it, i still feel regretted. just that one time i get angry with my friend, and she is now no longer my friend. maybe she treat me as an enemy, maybe she completly forget about me. i hope she do because i wanted so much to forget about her too. nowadays i watch my language towards my friends, and i will restrain my temper towards them. i don't want this to happen to me again. better not to be my most trusted cell friends.

Sianz

2007-04-12T20:14:00.000+08:00

nwadays very sianz seeing tv at home everyday. today i succeeded in finishing the show. yest i was nt in a very good mood. getting very angry day by day. dunno why it seems that i nw cannot really control my temper. one day i will flare up n hurt my near ones. today i very sad alot of tests. got maths, physics, napfa, D&T. so tired i felt like juz lying down and do nth. so meaningless. yest suppose to study together with XY. but she busy. no matter wat is it i will still fail my exam. sianz. fail is like eating rice to me. argh!!! nth to do. no one answer my call. so sianz muz do something fun. bought a tiger soft toy to soothe my sad feelings. today i think i will continue to watch corner*with love. sianz arh!!!

filling up yest entry

2007-04-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

nw filling up yest entry. i watch tv until 2. so no time to blog. yest i feel very sick. having serious headache n vomited ny lunch. i got the headache bcoz i watch the movie "virgin" at home. the show have scenes which the filming quality is bad, n it is dark. so my eyes get so twirl. i bought a doraemon VCD yesterday. i watch it until 1. after that i watch soccer until 2. 10 portswiss vs man U 2:1. nth to write going to church later.

youth alive

2007-04-07T14:09:00.000+08:00

yesteday i went to youth alive concert. planetshakers youth alive came. the concert is fun, but the songs a bit erm not very familiar. not sang in church at all. only beautiful saviour n jump around we sang b4. the message is quite good toking bout heroes. but the process they are syaing i have already noe who is the ultimate heroe on this earth. yest afternoo slac the whole day at home. i think today i oso like that. yest watch a movie called soul quite scary though. nth to write liao. bye bye.

weekend with one day free

2007-04-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

yoz... finally thursday. waiting this day long time. but i oso noe at the nxt min, i will find myself finishing my weekend. time really go by very fast. that time is the one week holiday now already week 3. arghh!!! so fast going to mid year. juz going to faint when i see the weeks going pass. i still wonder why last time i felt that time is going very slow, izzit bcoz i have a lot of frenz who car bout me now? or izzit bcoz last time i do all the things is meaningless.

this year for myself the theme is studies. every yr i will have a theme for myself to improve my life, in order to focus more on things rather to confuse myself. last yr my theme is friendship, n i can confidently tell myself i have done it. maybe not he frenz in sch but the frenz outside. to me now they are all very important to me. bcoz i think that there is no levels (best frenz, hangout frenz, sch frenz, geners.) for friends. they are all equal to me.

today i pon speech day, the event is juz too sianz. i m so sad my workpiece the impt part is broken. luckily it still could be save. i feel that this week like i m so suai. nth goes well for me. this week although it is col holy week but it is still a sad week... the geog common test today is quite normal. i use up less than half an hour to fill up my brain cells though. i use my super memory to suck up all the main points. i found out that my memory is quite good. i think i can juz barely pass this test. bcoz of storing too much things in my head. a bit last min forget. i think it is very hard to score well for this sub.

let me fill up yesterday entry. yest i was too tired to use the comp. i went to mac n study maths with XY. quite hard working though. hardly to see myself like that. there is a maths Qns i dunno how to do but the teacher not around. sianz. nth much happen in sch yest. physics teacher still nvr cum. i want to ask her about me joining the youth flying club. why u nvr cum!!! nvm not in a rush to ask. got stop writng as my eyes are tired.

doing DNT theory

2007-04-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

today is like doing nth. physics teacher nvr cum, the whole class getting scolded by mdm tay, the whole sch kena reduce recess time. today is like so negative full of scoldings n punishment. it seem that my whole class is getting use of it. i think my class will have more ppl getting punish day by day. sianz, but really my class i think they are all good students. although vulgarities is around the class, but we noe that everyone dun mean it. they can say our class is worst than normal. n i hear comments from other normal from sec 5. they are looking down in sec 3/5. even teachers says that it is always class 3/5 is the worst class. i wanted to tell all those in normal that they dun have any rights to say us, as no matter how bad we are, we are still from the express. pls look at ur class number b4 looking down on us. n teachers i can say that the whole of 3/5 will prove all of you wrong. we will pass n let you see. i like this class, it have all kinds of diff. ppl. but all of them are good in nature n are bright students. if u are to suspend them, it is a kind of watse. today my former class gather together, they have no interest in cuming after 5. very sad to say they dun want to cum. ms chua send me the sms saying that she cannot meet up b4 5. i want to tell all of them that we are not beggars telling u all to go. we nid to pay for all of you to go leh. if u are not interested, get lost. dun give negative remarks. i think i will no longer force them. u all dun think i cum n ask u is a must. then u all r wrong. we are focusing on the quality not the quantity. if not for ms chua, this kind of things i dun think i will pay for u all to go. since u all are so negative, i got nth to say. johnny always tell me to focus in my own sch. but for myself i always wanted to reach out to others not only from my sch. that is what i wanted. nw i going to chiong my DNT theory headache siah. got to stop my writing.

nth to do

2007-04-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

so fast my weekend finish liao. got tickets for youth alive concert. planetshakers is cuming. yeah!!! i like their song "pick it up". they have this lyrics saying taking my cross laying down my life. that is juz wat i wish to do. today i ask my former classmates bcoz my teacher col them to go. but it is like bcoz it is church event no one wants to go. maybe i will juz tell miss chua to meet them up before the concert. but i really want to invite them. i m a person who dun like to force anyone. i really hope that they will think bout it seriously n not thinking that it is a laughing matter. if they are willing, i will help them get there despite the limited amt of tickets. although there is still a lot of rejection but i will nvr give up.

Keep Mpving Forward

2007-03-31T10:19:00.000+08:00

yest too tired. nvr got to tok about the movie i saw. yest i went to the cinema to watch meet the robinsons. it is a very inspiring movie, toking about a person thinking that he has no future. when he tok about this i start thinking about myself. i nvr once in my life think of the future. a boy called louise, his invention is always a failure. but he nvr stop trying. that is the determination i like. "KEEP MOVING FORWARD" that is wat the boy wants to do. no matter what failure he face juz keep moving forward. inspiring rite. and louise manage to travel to the future to meet his own son wilbur robinson n bcuming good friend with him. later he got his adopted parents and his name was change to cornelius robinsons. cornelius is one of my friends baptism name though. then cornelius nvr stop inventing when he was young he won a lot of prizes n bcame a good inventor. this movie inspire ppl not to give up. i nvr regretted spending my $$$ on this. i dun mind watching it again. heehee.

chiong blogging.

2007-03-29T20:02:00.000+08:00

kena nagged by my sisiter by using overshot the time. today got the chinese paper. the qns i dunno how to do, the ans is in the paper!!! arghh!!! that is one mark i miss. so sad. today quite fun have nice PE lesson but the whole class is getting more scoldings from miss shah. and she even call our class "monkeys". but we are oso born in the year of monkey. today DNT is really quite fun. we manage to touch on our workpiece. finish some work. n get the concept of making a sports car design. last period is eng. not say very boring but the lesson seems to end very quickly. it is only one period mah. after sch got assembly, not say very sianz. this time one is very interesting. after all those sch thingy gt badminton. today a bit lack in my skills. maybe my wrist nvr recover fully. sad though. got to stop writing liao, or else my sis will burst my eardrums. nice day...

First post of a new blog

2007-03-28T19:02:00.000+08:00

nvr have a good time this few weeks. slacking from my homework, trying to get out of it. teachers are quite weird without finding out i m slacking. spend 25 bucks on a dictionary today. quite cool though. these few days i m like doing nth at hme but working myself out for only 3 hrs. time really pass by very fast. i can still rmb vividly that i juz enter sec 3 on january. now it is already almost the end of march. arhhhh!!! my mid year is cuming, dunno how i will fare. i dun think it will be good as i m quite slacking. i m thinking that i chiong this SA1 and get a model aeroplane for myself. the plane was like wat is sold at isetan, a beginners plane which is bigger n made of plastic. but there is no weapons juz a simple plane so i no need to get a license juz to fly that day. then maybe after getting hold of the skills i will then get the license to control a pro aerobics plane. quite fun thinking of playing with it. this was discovered by me and jookeng when we went simlim to upgrade my psp version. speaking of the psp, makes my heart boil. they said that my psp version was a patch one, they nid to bring bac to the factory n downgrade it to 1.5 ver. , it cost 50 bucks. i decided not to do it even i have the money to do so. n after downgrading they nid to upgrade the version for me n that cost another 30 bucks. tat mean total i will spend 80 bucks. that time is the the week b4 the end of the month. it is no payday. so sad. but i get over it after the few days. after toking to my cell friends about it n they suggest i save money. i agree though. good to have these frenz around me to teach me wat i shld do. thx a lot frenz.